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~ Emmy ~

The truth is, I have never really liked the idea of giving blow jobs. Well, not really, anyway; it was just not the main item on the menu when I found myself alone and playing. I could never make up my mind if I really enjoyed the thought or not.

"And now?" Rae asked as I lowered my lips around Matteo.

"I don't mind it!" I admitted as I slowly bobbed back up. I had thought it impossible to fully take him in my mouth, yet here I was doing my best to try.

I think because of how I was raised, sex was not something we discussed, let alone practised; having spent years with it drummed into me through childhood and my teens, I needed to build a wall between my actions and my sexuality. I had a bit of resentment for the act. So every time I rebelled and am lost in thoughts of kink, my hand tries to go down below; all I see is my damn Mother glaring at me like a sinner!

Not that she ever ever took me to one side and told me anything about sex and my body; no one told us girls anyth