CHAPTER 5: The Persona of His Fear

Alpha's POV

Kai was now busy in the kitchen cleaning and everything. It's almost 8. I can't believe it's this late. And for some reason, I don't understand what he meant about his sorry.

"It's really raining hard outside." he suddenly spoke out from the kitchen.

I looked at the window and he was right. I felt worried.

"Did you text your mom? She must be worried that you're not home yet." He spoke.

"Yeah, I did." I answered.

Silence engulfed us. Only the pouring rain can be heard from outside the apartment. It was gushing. Really a terrible, heavy rain. I wonder when will it stop or, will it stop at all?

"Hey Kai... I should really go home. It's getting late and I don't think the rain will stop anytime." I spoke.

"Well, why not stay here?" he suggested.

Seriously? I am staying in a guy's apartment?

"But... I... I don't think it's a good idea..." I mumbled because seriously. For real? He maybe an acquaintance but still.

Besides, I am talking about Kai.

"Stay until the rain will stop..."

"But...,"

"No buts... Besides, it's just ME. Nothing to be worried about."

Well the fact that its YOU means a lot as to why I don't want to stay for the night.

"Are you ok? Do you feel uncomfortable?" he asked as he sat down in the sofa.

"I'm fine. Though I really want to go home..."

"We can watch a movie while we pass the time. What kind of movie do you want?" he asked and went to get the remote.

"Something action..."

He scanned for the folder in the tv and stopped on the movie entitled, Upgrade...

Wonder what was upgraded in this movie though...

I peeped on the clock once more and its already 9.

The rain is still pouring.

Time passed as we were both watching the movie. I can hardly focus because my attention is in the clock right above the tv and in the window in case the rain may stop.

I can only sigh.

"Don't worry so much." He spoke as he notice my uneasiness.

"As if I can do anything."

He was only silent.

Then suddenly, he took the remote and paused the movie.

"Alpha..." he spoke.

I turned and looked at him.

"Do you know what I've been through after what happened during elementary? Right after that incident?" he suddenly asked.

"No. Actually, ever since you left our place, I didn't hear anything from you."

He smirked. "Yeah, that's what I thought. I'm going to show you something."

He then went to his room and waved for me to come inside.

What the hell!

Seriously, I don't want to go there!

Who knows what's he's going to show me. My mind is totally running with wild thoughts right now.

"Do you want me to bride carry you?" he spoke.

"Umm, can you just show it to me here, in the living room?" I startled.

He laughed. "Are you scared?"

I paused. "A little..."

"Don't worry. As far as I know, you're way scarier than me. I don't want to mess you up."

I sighed.

I stood up and went to his room.

I feel really uncomfortable to be honest.

"Don't be so stiff, sit down." He gestured to the chair.

So I did.

"Ever since that happened I have been home schooled. I have to attend psychological treatments every now and then because I had tantrums every time I remember that day."

"Those days were horrible. Probably I could have died if it weren't for the treatments." Kai spoke as he was taking something from his drawer.

I didn't know that what I did to him had so much damage. I thought it was just nothing.

We were just kids then. And I was just a kid too.

"Even now, I still undergo treatments since I still have slight tantrums every time I remember those times. Especially... When I remember you."

I bit my lip. How did that incident can had so much effect on him.

"Why are you silent?" he asked.

"I...I... Can't believe that I did that to you. " I spoke under my trembling voice and guilt. "I'm really sorry."

"Yeah. That is how you were able to change Me." he answered.

With those words, I slightly felt the coldness in the room.

He is saying those words again. Words that hides meaning.

"I didn't know that it had so much effect on you. Haha... well, I will just take my stuff in the living for a while, my phone is in there, I was about to text someone."

Then I went to the door and opened it.

But it was locked. It's lock is number dial.

I cannot open it even I'm inside!

"I thought your phone was dead." He muttered.

I looked at him and he was wearing that nasty aura again.

"I really need to get my stuff Kai..." I spoke.

I can really feel my voice trembling.

"Not tonight..."

He then took something from his cabinet. A wooden box.

It made a ticking sound and the box was open.

There I saw, pictures of me, back from when I was elementary and high school. All of them were cleanly filed in the box. It took me by surprise.

Why does he have my pictures?

"This is how my treatment goes. I had to get used to your face so that I will be used to my fear."

" But it was never enough. My doctor said that I had to go back and face my fear. It took months to decide because I know my limits. I was scared." he spoke.

I just stared at him, while he was scanning my images.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

He sighed then went to another cabinet.

He  took something from it.

It was a rock. A dark, shiny rock with sharp edges.

"Well... that's what you're going to find out..."

He then went closer, as I also backed off.

He was throwing the rock in the air and catches it softly with his hand.

God, please help me...

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Authors Note.

Thats it for this chapter ..

Thank you very my much for reading...