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Kabanata 32
Kabanata 32
Feelings
It is so hard to be alive these past few days. I don't know when it started. I don't know how it started. The last time I checked, I was fine. Everything was fine and peaceful. Hindi na ako nananaginip ng masama. Hindi ko na napapanaginipan ang pagkakabaril kay daddy noon at kung paano siya bumagsak sa harapan ko. Hindi ko na napapanaginipan ang kambal ni Zick nang dahil sa kagagawan ko. Hindi ko na napapanaginipan ang mga nangyari noon.
Na sa sobrang traumatizing ng lahat ay talagang hindi ko kinakaya kapag inaatake ako ng nakaraan.
But the past few days was so hard for me to spent. Unti-unti na namang bumabalik sa alaala ko ang lahat. I am starting to hear those screams inside my head again lalo na ang sigaw ni dad sa pangalan ko nang gabing 'yon. Na sa sobrang sakit ay mas gusto ko itong alisin sa sistema ko ngunit hindi ko alam kung paano.
"Acel, wait... please, talk to me."
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Kabanata 35RainedWhen I met Kiel, I started to dream for a relationship that cares more about the silent battles and sudden joy; the one I know I can be carefree, but also makes me feel secured.It just crushed down when history came into the picture of our life. Na hindi naman dapat nangyari. Na hindi naman dapat kami kasali.I was too young and impulsive. Na sa sobrang puno ako ng pagmamahal noon ay kaya kong kalimutan ang mga kasalanan ng lahat para lang maging payapa ang isipan ng nakararami. It did nothing to me. It didn’t help me at all. Lalong gumulo. Lalong nasira. Lalong nawasak lahat ng pinanghawakan ko noon.
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