30: I'm dying

Dana

I thought about Demian. Thinking about him was something I did recurrently, as my brain couldn't stop reminding me of what happened months ago.

Being back in the city was a last-minute decision. I didn't have time to process how painful it would be to return. I loved being in my city, because I could reconnect with my mother and explain the situation to her. But every corner of this city reminded me of why I left. And what Demian did to me.

I have to admit that I wanted to see Demian's reaction when he found out that his former best friend and I would get married. I wanted him to suffer as I suffered when I found out that Demian would marry Rachel, and they would have a child. I know my attitude was childish, but my heart still hurt for everything that happened between us. Resentment consumed me. I couldn't control it.

I wanted to be the one to tell him, but my attitude was a desperate act.

"My mother won't like us getting married, Jeremy. I don't think she'll agree to our marria