75: Lost

Demian

Losing control. That's what happens to me when Dana is near. I feel like I keep making mistakes and I don't know how to stop. My conscience weighs on me, and the ghosts of the past haunt me. Kissing Dana was a weakness I couldn’t resist. When her mother interrupted us, I knew we had made a mistake, and something told me that Dana would regret it too.

In reality, I didn’t regret kissing Dana. I didn’t even regret almost making love to her. But Dana and I had marriages that deserved respect.

I didn’t want to be unfaithful.

I didn’t want to do that to Rachel, who was waiting for me at home without a clue that this was happening.

Jeremy burst into Dana's room. I almost threw him out.

Dana mentioned that she would think about her decision. Meaning, she assured Jeremy that she would consider not divorcing him. Why the hell? Why was she backing down?

I didn't want Dana to suffer, but I also didn't want her to be with Jeremy. Their marriage made my skin crawl. I couldn't stand seeing