“Alexa, we’re here”. I blinked a couple of times as Calan’s voice gently brought me out of my reverie. I couldn’t believe that I had for a moment spaced out while leaning against him like this, I couldn’t believe that I had let myself lean against him in the first place. Saying nothing, I pulled myself together and sat upright, I realized that the door was already being held open for me so I climbed out with as much grace as I could. I had just been discharged from the hospital so it was natural that I was completely exhausted and weakened, my joints were stiff and I found it hard to move quickly. I felt my knees crack and pop with every step I took, it reminded me of sitting in by the fire place on a cold night; listening to the licks, the pops and the cracks. Once again, I wrapped my arms around myself in a feeble attempt to keep out the cold and emptiness. And I was almost at the front steps of the entrance of the house when the house helps begun filing out; it seemed almost
Knock knock….. My eyes sprang open at once on hearing the subtle sound of someone knocking at the door, I don’t know when or how, but it seemed I had somehow made it to the bed and fallen asleep. I head felt fuzzy and my eyes were heavy and almost painful, they had this dull ache in them that had me squinting and groaning quietly. I pulled myself together before sitting up slowly. The room had darkened considerably and I couldn’t help but wonder why anyone would want to wake me when it was already dark. The knock sounded again and I forced myself to climb out of bed, my head throbbed even more with every step I took towards the door, and I was glad when I finally got to it and unlocked it.Mildred stood there; she offered me a warm smile which I tried my best to reciprocate. However, I’m certain I looked exhausted and pitiful even.“Good evening Ma’am”. She greeted.“Good even….”. I stopped to clear my raspy voice before trying again. “Good evening, Mildred”.Her warm eyes softened
“Alexa…..”.I was back in that glass room again, and like always, it took me a moment to pull my thoughts together. I realized I had fallen asleep on the couch and Calan was saying my name. A John Steinbeck from The East of Eden Letters quote came to mind as I cracked my eyes open tiredly….. ‘But I do feel strange-almost unearthly. I’ll never get used to being alive. it’s a mystery. Always startled to find I’ve survived’. I stared up into his eyes, those greys that seemed to turn silver every now and then, that seemed to glow from time to time; I could never get used to their intensity, I could never get used to him being so close, to his face hovering over mine.“Let’s get you back to bed”. He said. For a moment I did nothing, just stared up at him tiredly; all the while my heartbeats slowed to a painful pace as my heart and throat begun constricting painfully. “Why didn’t you come sooner?”. I asked him once more. My voice was barely a whisper.I just so desperately wanted to kn
My heart clenched painfully and my conscience screamed at me as he begun making his way to my room, I know Micheal and I hadn’t done anything wrong but I couldn’t help but feel guilty, but feel bad for having let that happen in the first place. Did I regret it though? No, I didn’t, and I could never regret it.“Put me down”. I said quietly. My voice was thick with so much emotion that even I knew I sounded pained.“I just want to help you to your room; I’ll let you be afterwards”. He said to me. “I promise”.I blinked and a lone stream of tears went sliding down her cheek, she sniffled quietly and her heart pounded heavily with every step he took, she let her eyelids droop as the dizziness struck her, it felt as though the world was revolving around her at the moment. “Put me down”. She said again. She had spoken too late because he had somehow gotten to her room already, and so he lay her down on the bed gently. I pried my eyes open as I felt his warm breaths fan my face, I foun
‘You deserve better…..’“If you didn’t want to marry me that much then you shouldn’t have”. I croaked. He shook his head.“Was I to go against my father?”. He asked me. “Was I to know that you would expect love and roses from a marriage of convenience?”. He was right, but I couldn’t blame myself, I was young and he was everything a girl could fantasize about, it wasn’t my fault if I couldn’t help how I fell about him. “My father was everything to me, and he wanted me to marry you, and so I did”. He said to me. I nodded. I understood that, and I understood that he had left the woman he truly loved to marry me, I understood that that was why he had been so cold and distant, but I could never understand why he would go as far as being unwell for so long and not telling anyone about it. “Was it serious?”. I asked him after a long moment of heated silence. I knew it had to have been serious to have kept him away for so long, I just wanted him to say it, I wanted him to confirm. “I do
In his dark and luxurious office, Calan sat going through some reports when his phone vibrated subtly, his gaze flickered to the device to find Micheal's name displayed on the screen. He could guess why Micheal was calling and so he didn't pick the call, he didn't want to talk about it. The ringing nearly came to an end when the door opened and Micheal barged in with Rita, his secretary following closely while telling him that he wanted no guests at the moment. Of course, he ignored hee and walked right up to Calan's desk. "Sir wait, please....". Rita pleaded. She could lose her job for this and she was more worried about that than the fact that the boss didn't want guests at the moment. Micheal spun around to face her, and the sharp look in his eyes had her breath hitching at once. She stood there staring at him being unable to utter a single word. "That's alright. Rita, you may leave". Calan spoke at once. She nodded quickly before turning around and hurrying out. And once th
The day had passed by slowly and agonizingly, I had spent all day waiting for Micheal to get back to me, and when I didn’t hear from him I decided to call and he didn’t answer my call, and it was then I decided to try to face my problem on my own. And the very second I heard the sound of the gate opening outside I knew that Calan was back, I immediately abandoned my spot on my bed and hurried out of my room. And as I hurried through the hallway and down the stairs I realized that I had indeed lost a lot of weight, I felt light on my feet, too light and faint. But that didn’t stop me from carrying on; I gripped the banister tightly to keep me from falling in case I tripped. I got downstairs in time to see him stepping in, and on seeing me his eyes widened ever so slightly, almost as though he hadn’t expected to see me. He glanced at his watch before his gaze flickered back to mine. “It’s late”. He said to me. I knew it was late. Something told me that he deliberately stayed out l
It was late when Micheal got home, it had become a habit for him to return so late since his feelings for Alexa became so very complicated, it had become so hard to face April, too hard even, and so, he had decided to simply not face her unless he really had to. True that he usually returned from the office late, but not late enough to keep him from returning home before she turned in from the night. As the president of the Greyman’s College it was safe to say that he had a lot to do, but he exaggerated it every now and then just so he didn’t have to come home and deal with April. He made his way to the stairs and his regal footsteps against the marble staircase was the only sounds that disturbed the silence that had settled over the house. He rubbed his temple wearily as walked, it had been a long day and all he wanted at the moment was to take a shower and go straight to bed. It wasn’t just that though, the fact that he had ignored Alexa’s calls had been bothering him all day,