Chapter 1 - Pain

Christelle's PoV 

'you can do this, Christell..' 

I calm my self. I'm here Infront of my boyfriend's condo, It's our first anniversary and I wanted to surprise him.

I don't know if I am feeling this feeling because I am too nervous to tell him that I am pregnant and we're having a baby or there's something else..

"Oh gad..! Ano ba itong iniisip ko?.." 

I ignore that feeling and continue to enter Leonel's door and I was surprise when a panty?.. on the floor greeted me..

What the heck?!

I stormed to my boyfriend's room and there.. I saw him.. moaning.. on the stop of my classmate..

"Oh my gad! What the hell is this, Leonel!?"

They both stop because of my loud voice, both of them are panting but there's annoyed look in there eyes.

Am I the disturbing them?

"Christelle.."

He called me casaully like he didn't do anything nasty and disgusting!

"Leonel.. w-what the h ll was this, l-love?.."

My eyes are slowly building tears, I can't.. I can't move, I can't describe what I am feeling right now..

I tried to hold my tears but It just came out like a water falls. Oh my gad, my boyfriend's cheating on me?..

"I thought you're a dean's list, you can't tell what we are doing?!"

Sabrina.. my classmate.. Leonel's f ckmate rolled her eyes while spitting those words.

I wanted to slap her, I wanted to hurt her, I wanted to do everything to make her cry Infront of me but I can't stand that low! I can't do that, that's not a good ..thing.

"Leonel?.. baby.. I want to hear your ex---planation.."

My voice continue to crack while I was waiting for his explanation.

Leonel get up and pick his pants up, he wear it like it is a usual day and like his girlfriend didn't found out that he was cheating on her.

"What explanation are you still needed? Can't you just see? I am f cking her." 

He pointed Sabrina who's now sitting on the bed. She has that disgusting smile.

"But I wanted to clear something too so, let's talk in private. Sab.. can you please leave for a minute?.."

Ang lambing lambing ng boses na ginamit n'ya kay Sabrina. Yung boses na akala ko para saakin lang.. ay hindi pala..

"Sure, baby.."

Sabrina left the room together with the blanket.

"Let's split. I am breaking up with you."

As soon as the bedroom's door closed those are the word that he said.

"W-what?.. why?.. don't do this.. I--I am willing to forgive you.."

I tried to maintain my smile because my lips were trembling.

"I'm sorry? I didn't ask for you forgiveness, Christelle. 'I am breaking up with you', is what I said."

He repeated those words like nothing.

"No..just no.. please, Leonel.. don't.."

I begged. For the first time in my life, I beg to someone but It's for my baby.

"I'm really sorry. I can't stay with you anymore, you are too..boring and..blant."

'you are too..boring and..blant.'

'you are too..boring and..blant.'

'you are too..boring and..blant.'

Those words repeated on my head like crazy and what makes me angry is that.. His sorry weren't sincere, It is just full of mocking.

"How can you say sorry if you're not really asking for it?! And boring? How can you say that after you enjoyed my body?"

He release a mocking laugh, "enjoyed? Goodness! Hahahahaha! I didn't enjoy anything, Christelle. Ni wala nga akong sarap na naramdaman e."

I don't know how but my trembling palm fly to his face! My eyes widen, oh gad! I hurt someone!

"A-are you o-okay?.. O my gad.. I am sorry.."

Nanginginig akong lumapit sa kanya at sinubukan kong hawakan ang kanyang mukha pero hinawi niya ako.

Natumba ako sa sakit at ang baby ko kaagad ang aking inalala, baka mapano siya!

"Ano ba?! Mag- ingat ka naman!"

It is the first time that I shouted at him and he look shock.

"Paano kung makunan ako?! Paano kung natumba ako ng malakas at mawala ang baby natin, sige nga?!" Dagdag ko.

His eyes went wide with his half open mouth. After few seconds ay nakabawi na din siya.

"What?"

Mabilis akong tumango, "Yes, I am pregnant, Leonel. " Matapang kong sagot 

He shook his head multiple times before he pointed his room's door. "Leave."

"W-what?.."

My eyes started to cry again. Did I just misheard him?..

"I said leave, Christelle."

His eyes are full of determination to make me leave.

"Leave before I drag you out of my room. You're disturbing us." He added

"No.. n-no.. you can't do this..I am pregnant, Leonel. Kailangan mo kaming panagutan, please.."

My voice were trembling while I am begging him.

"I-i am willing to---to.. forget everything that happen to--today.. just please.."

Putol putol ang aking salita dahil sunod sunod ang aking pag sinok kasabay ng aking mga luha.

"Leave, Christelle.."

"Pe--pero Leonel, buntis nga ako! Paano naman ang bata?.."

"I said leave! Bingi ka ba?! And the hell I care to that kid?!"

He.. shouted at me.. he--he never did that before 

"You're rich, right? Palakihin mo na lang mag-isa or.. abort it, I don't care! but remember.. I don't have any responsibility to you or even to that baby!"

My palm flew again to his face. He wanted me to abort my baby!

"How dare you?! Ang kapal kapal ng mukha mo! Marunong kang bumayo pero 'di ka marunong umako ng responsibilidad mo?!"

"Lalake ka ba talaga?!"

I shouted to his face but he seems like he didn't care at all.

"You can say everything that you wanted but.. please leave. I wanted to rest."

I wipe my tears in face using my hand and turn to him.

"Remember this day, Leonel,  the day that you asked me to leave. Ang araw na ipinagtabuyan mo kami.. Ipagdasal mo na kahit kailan hindi na tayo muling magkita.. dahil sa susunod na mag kita ulit tayo, ikaw naman ang magmamakaawa sa harapan ko."

I said those word while looking at his eyes. I then take my leave.

Nakita ko pa si Sabrina na nakangisi habang naka upo sa sofa.

Kadiri.