Chapter 70

I know I should have known better, I know she must hate me and I should be happy that she doesn't love me and ran away from me when she did. 

She’s a good girl and deserves better.I should have known better, done better but instead my quest to want a child was so great I managed to chase her away and with her my happiness, avatar she left I was cast into darkness unlike what I have ever felt, it captivated my soul and even defected my ways. 

I'm a bastard I've done so many terrible things to her when she was living with me, I never really protected her even when I knew she was being maltreated by my staff, i did not care when she would cook for me and I would ignore her food and laugh to humiliate her. I was a terrible mate back then and it was until years later that I began to feel compassion for her but even then I was not always home as i looked for alternatives to my curse and in so doing left her alone and