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Chapter fifteen
I dialled Elaine's phone several times and it just kept ringing. She was Mama's favorite child and she of all people shouldn't be off.
The campus had just been closed down yesterday due to the covid 19 pandemic, when I was still mourning a relationship that never existed.
I slapped myself in the head three times forcing my anxiety, distress and emotions to work together with me and solve the current issue.
I could fix my broken heart alone but I can't fix Mama's illness so she can get well. I felt bad at myself remembering the earphones incident at the hospital when I couldn't hear her calling me.
Dear God, just this once help mama get well, I prayed frantically.
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