____________________________...It had been exactly one month since Rory and I accidentally slept together again and I wanted to celebrate it because it was a turning leaf for our relationship. But Ashton here did not think it was the brightest idea. "You are not a fifteen-year-old schoolgirl in her first relationship, Rowan. Act like an adult, won't you?" He laughed. "You are making it way too obvious how smitten you are for your wife." I grunted as I sat back in my chair. It was so easy for him to say whatever came to his mind because he had succeeded in using the cruise event to get Shannon to admit her feelings for him. It was not that I was not happy for him. I was very much happy for my best friend to have found his happily ever after. But I just envied him a little. I wanted teeny tiny happy ever after as well. "The first step to getting what you have been trying to get is admitting your own feelings to yourself." He said, his index finger pointed upward as he walked over
_________________________________...The car ride churned my insides and when we reached the parking lot, I shoved open the door and rushed to a waste bin, emptying whatever was left in my gut. It was not my brightest moment and even though I did not want it, Rowan was at my side in an instant holding back my hair and rubbing my back."You are gonna be okay, pumpkin." He whispered. "We will see the doctor in a minute."Somehow, instead of providing any sort of relief, his words just annoyed me. I knew I was going to see a doctor. I did not need him to tell me as much.I shoved him away and stood up straight only to sway due to light-headedness. Though he was initially shocked by how he was pushed away, he overcame that pretty quickly and wrapped his arms around me. "We will get you some water."He seemed really concerned.Well, I guess it was only human to worry about someone even if you did not like them, when they were sick. There was nothing more to it."I could use some water r
______________________________ . . . I paced the waiting room for the nth time before Rory came back out. Thank God she did because I was going to barge in there before I had an anxiety attack if she had taken any longer. "What did the doctor say? Are you okay?" I grabbed her by the shoulders and slightly shook her in the nervousness. "Whoa, calm down Keller. My head's spinning!" She grabbed my arms. She looked a lot paler than she did when she went in and it was starting to scare the shit out of me. "What did the doctor say?" I asked her again. "Over-exertion and sleep deprivation along with shitty food is never a good combination." She said. I paused. I understood the over-exertion and the shitty food but where did the lack of sleep come from? The Aurora Keller I knew always made it a point to get eight hours of sleep. "Sleep deprivation?" I questioned. "I have a Chinese drama addiction. Sometimes I go overboard with it." She shrugged. I nodded, though I did not c
__________________________________________...Rowan shut me up and took me home. Though I kept protesting, even I wanted nothing more than to come home and lock myself up in my room.I had just received the best news of my life and I was here trying to hide it from everyone when I should be screaming it out at the top of my lungs.All through the ride back home, I thought where all of us stood in all this. I don't know what Rowan was planning. I just knew that he was trying to make it seem like he was smitten with me or something.Oh, wait.I sat down on the bed.That's it.That's what he wants.He wants to make it seem like he is smitten with me so that when the divorce happens, no one thinks it is his fault.Wow.This man really was something else. And Ashton was in on it, which was the worst part. No, that was not the worst part. The worst part was that I had played right into it and went ahead and even slept with him multiple times. If it was not for me overhearing the phone ca
__________________________________________...One minute Rory was roasting me with her witty comments and the next thing I knew, my wife was a sobbing mess."Baby!!" I wrapped my arms around her trying to comfort her. I may not be an experienced father and I have seen enough shows and movies to know that this was her hormones.My baby was pregnant with our baby and I had to take care of her and- Ouch!She elbowed me in the gut and pushed me away from her."Go. Away. Rowan!" She glared at me.Okay, she was angry now. And anger was not good for the baby. I needed to calm her down."Alright alright... Whatever you want, pumpkin!" I held my hands up in surrender. "But won't you tell me what's wrong?" I asked her."You. You are what is wrong!" She yelled at me. And then she stopped crying, wiping away her tears and turned to the ice cream. What just happened? Get it together, Rowan. This is what is going to happen for eight-nine months from now on. "Did I do something to piss you off?"
___________________________________..."But I want to hear it from you."I stared at him for a good few moments. Why was he so desperate to hear it from me when he already knew about the pregnancy?I sighed. I could do whatever I wanted to do but I could not change the fact that this piece of shit was the father of my child and no matter what I said to justify it, he had the right to know.In this case, he already knew. But I still had the duty to tell him."I am six weeks pregnant."His face lit up for a moment before it turned into one of confusion."Six weeks?" He asked.I narrowed my eyes at him. Was he doubting me?I wanted to scream at him that I was not a vile cheater like him. But after a good cry and a few scoops of ice cream, I was feeling much more rational and also generous so I simply nodded."Doctors make an estimate of gestation period based on the last menstrual period." I shrugged. "If you have any doubts, the doctor will tell you the exact date of conception on th
_______________________________...There was no way we were getting a divorce, not if I could help it. I paced the guest room as I chewed on my fingertips, worrying about how I was going to change Rory's mind about this whole situation. "You have no one to blame but yourself for the situation." I did not need my best friend on face-time to tell me that I had fucked up. I knew it very well myself. But as always, Ashton had to point out the obvious. I had not told him about the baby yet. I needed to discuss with my wife when she would be ready to break the news to her friends and her family. This was her body and she had the first right to make any decisions regarding this pregnancy. I am pretty sure she needed her own time to tell me about the pregnancy but she had lost the chance and had to disclose it to me faster than she had anticipated or liked, I was not ready to let any other decision be taken away from her. "So what made you change your mind about the divorce?" Ashton a
____________________________________...In the past three months, Rowan and I had done great job in convincing each and every one of our friends and family that we were actually giving our relationship a try, so much so that Gaby, Eric and Zoe who knew the truth had also started to believe that we had worked things out and were blissfully happy. No one knew that this was far from the truth. I paced my room as I waited for the rest of my family and friends to get here. We were announcing the pregnancy to them tonight.I sighed.I had let Rowan move back to the main bedroom. I mean, what was the point in separate bedrooms when I was letting him do as he pleases anyway?I was so ashamed of myself for being so spineless. But the fact remained that, as Cristina Yang said, being aware of your crap and actually getting over that crap were two completely different things.I was absolutely aware of my crap, yes, but I still refused to get over it.I needed to have more self-respect."What