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CHAPTER 37
"How does it felt like having a partner?" I asked myself.
I opened my eyes in shock. My eyes and mouth widened as my heartbeats started pacing. Damn it! Did I just asked about being in a relationship? For real? No way, I was just dreaming! I would not be hunger just for a man! I will not rush having a partner!
I shook my head, convincing myself that my mind will be stable, soon.
But damn it, someone ruined it again. He mess with my mind. "Gosh, get out of my mind, can you?"
I heaved a sigh and shook my head again. I should focus on doing one thing. Not this someone mess with it. I find it unfair.
I stared at the paper while holding a pen. I am a bit tired of studying and I had to fresh my mind out. My lips slowly formed a smile when a thought came across. I stared more at the paper and winked.
I want to write down his name here and so I did. I was like an idiot girl writing down the name of her crush. And gosh, I was smiling from ear t
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