I been on maternity leave for the past whole 7 months...I got back to work 2 months back,Mark was so happy to have me back coz the temporary partner he had was giving him some hell...I just got ready for work,bathed and fed Cory same as brittney who'z been cranky this past days, I think she missing having her daddy around all the time " you done Lil girl?" I asked her, she shook her head" I don't wanna go to school mom please " she whined, I gave her the stank look,this all she been doing since she got enrolled in second grade " I'm serious I don't wanna go -" I cut her off" tell me why you don't wanna go" I asked her,she just looked at me" until you tell me the reason why you don't wanna go to school then I'm taking you there -now go get your bags and your brothers bags" I told her,she whined all the way upstairs, I ate while plying

Self harming goes together with being depressed right? Well I been depressed ever since I had the abortion, it's been over a year but I hate what I did, my boyfriend Tyrese whom I been with for 6 months thinks I should talk to someone but I'm talking to him so I don't get why he keeps saying I should talk to someone....even though I'm in college my mom still wants me living with her and it sucks...im with Tyrese now just chill and no we haven't been there yet." why do you hate your father so much?" I asked him coz his forever complaining about his father not doing stuff for him which lead him to being in gangs, he shrugged" his just not my typa dude...you coming with me to the college welcome party? it's gon be epic" he says looking excited, I sighed" I wanna go but you know how my

***friday Night ****I finally have my own scene dang been waiting for long. Anyway me, Cole,Marlene,Tyrese and Rosa just got to this college party, it's 8:48pm and the party is already off the hook...I looked around to see my bro at the DJ stand with his ' old' girlfriend Rina....no shade she's good looking,smart and inlove with Junaid but damn her family is just too much hence that's why I only tolerate Rosa." want some to drink?" Cole asked me and the girls.we nodded,the guys went off to get us some to drink." so here's what's gon happen,since everyone is pretty wasted already ,we gon play alil spin the bottle game to lighten up everybody's mood- coz what we planned up got smashed once they got wasted" Marlene ssays making me nod,but Rosa looked way too far from here"

Taking care of George is not that hard to do this days,its been over a month now since he been out of the hospital, I got him a wheel chair coz his and Alexa's medical bill was over the top and couldn't cover other things and with Alexa losing her job it kinda creates another atmosphere on the medical side,but she still comes everyday to make sure he okay I mean bitch I'm his girl I can take care of my man...but I aint gon complain all that.George still works but at home, selling houses online and his new 'assistance ' covers the show casing of the houses which is fine by me as long as the bitch knows her place coz I don't mind cutting up a bitch...it's Friday and I'm having lunch with my cousin Brandy who been telling me about my baby daddy ever since we got here " I told you not to take his sorry ass back but you never listen" I huffed

Am I not ready for marriage? She crazy. Alexa been avoiding me for the past weeks since I asked her to marry me...talking about she ain't ready that can only mean one thing she don't love me but mama trying to tell me otherwise " I hear you" I mumbled" but do you understand me boy,she been through alot...be glad she's even talking to your ass at this point " mama says I stale faced her" so I should wait for her to be ready? When is that gon be? She's basically avoiding my ass so bad now that we never talk or see each other "" have you shown her that you mad?" I thought about it then shrugged " that girl knows you angry that she said no,only way to fix this is to talk that lil girl, figure it out. You know I miss having that badass child here " she said referring to Cory