I ran out of words. I didn't know what to say after hearing all the gossips and reading the articles online. Everything that happened to me these past few days has always made me speechless. Parang natutulala na lang ako dahil sa mga pangyayari, eh. Umuwi kaagad kami pagkatapos kong mabasa ang mga artikulo sa internet. Nakakalat na sa kung saan-saang platform ang balitang may affair ang mommy ko. People keep on talking about her. They keep on spamming every tweet and post with hate comments. They even created hashtags. 'What a whore. Hindi na nakuntento sa asawa niya. She has everything she needs and wants but still cheated on her husband. #FarrahLandi' 'Gusto niya talagang mas sumikat at yumaman pa kaya pinatulan ang CEO na sobrang yaman! Pero girl, may asawa rin siya! #FarrahWhore' 'Flirt old woman. Lmao. #FarrahLandi #FarrahWhore' I turned my phone off after reading those few

I was waiting for Axi and Ivory to come back from the lavatory. I was so hungry that I didn't mind going there with them. Besides, I have a feeling that I am already starting to hate going to lavatories, rest rooms or comfort rooms because of Ethan and Wry. So, I just minded my own business and ate lunch since I am really hungry. As in, for real nagugutom na talaga ako. Ang dami ko ngang biniling pagkain, eh! I don't eat a lot but whenever I'm stressed out, I would unintentionally eat a little bit more. I already had two cups of rice and two pieces of fried chicken. I felt so full but still had a can of a carbonated drink. I also am planning on buying hash browns. "I know you're here." A familiar voice spoke that I almost spit out my drink. What the heck?! I had a sudden mix of emotions inside and I hated it. I don't want to be in my whirlpool of thoughts and become vulnerable again. Hindi na ako magiging marupok, I promised that to myself. And I will protect

"Hey, you can do this." Ethan told me as he gently hold my hand. We were in front of my parents' house and I am feeling a little nervous to get inside. Actually, halo halo ang emosyon ko ngayon. A part of me hated the fact that my parents were not really caring and nice to me ever since. They were blinded by their fame. They enjoyed their spot under the limelight. They caused me both emotional and mental damages. I could feel anger boiling up in my heart again just by thinking every cruel thing my parents put me in, so I tried to execute the breathing exercises for me to calm down. I can't be like this right now. I needed to get things done. I needed to fight against my own monsters. "Masama ba ang pakiramdam mo? Let's just go back when you're ready to face them again, Erin. You need to compose yourself first, okay? Please don't push yourself too hard. May nakalaang oras para sa lahat ng bagay. There's no need to rush." Ethan tried to make me feel better with all tho

"Love-" I was about to say something to Ethan but stopped when I realized what I just said. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang lumingon si Ethan sa 'kin. And his eyes widened as well. Of course, we're both shocked! He obviously heard what I just called him. Magkatabi lang naman kaming dalawa. Umawang ang labi nito at nagtatanong ang mga mata. "Did... did you just call me 'love'?" He asked, amused. I bit my lower lip. I didn't know what to say again! Pasmado talaga ang bibig ko at kung anu ano na lang ang lumalabas mula dito! Palaging nadudulas, eh. "I mean-" Umiwas ako ng tingin nang mapansing sumeryoso ang mukha nito. I'm never ready to talk about 'this' yet. Para akong kakapusan ng hininga kapag pag-uusapan namin ang relasyon namin or whatever. Kasi alam ko na kung saan 'to patungo, eh! As I said, I don't want to commit myself to Ethan for now. And I don't to disappoint or hurt him in any way. "Alam mo bang ilang beses ko nang pinangarap na tawagin mo rin ako ng ganoon, Zephyrine?"

I guess love can actually drive us insane. It's terrifiying at most times. I could attest that."She's still not answering her phone?" Ethan asked while driving the car to the cafe where my sister frequent. At least that's what her friends told me over the phone a while back.I puckered my lips as I shook my head. I also couldn't help but let out a heavy sigh. It's been hours since my sister went missing in action. And we still couldn't track her. Pero hindi naman ako susuko sa paghahanap sa kanya. Kaya lang ay pagod na talaga ako sa ngayon. I felt like my body's about to give up any moment from now, but I didn't make it obvious to Ethan. Alam kong pagod na rin siya. The least I could do is to not stress him out more. Kahit na hindi ako sure kung anong ginagawa ko ngayon. Kasi sa totoo lang, hindi naman na dapat nandito si Ethan. This has nothing to do with him. And yet he's here—to help me find my sister. I heard him heave a deep breath as well. He then carefully pulled over near a