Josh was resting on his bed, staring up into the ceiling, he had a giant knot in his stomach, he had never in his life been this confused and torn apart. He had been very surprised when Connor out of the blue told him it would be okay for him to go after Amelia. Was it just random lashing out, because Josh was the one who was there, because Connor knew he would protect her or did he know something ? Had he seen through him ? Josh thought he had been very discreet, he knew it was wrong of him to be harbouring feelings for her and normally he would never even consider acting on them, he couldn't do that t

Amelia didn't know what had gotten into her, she shouldn't be kissing Josh, but the way he had looked at her had simply knocked her off her feet and she had reacted on pure instinct. Josh froze up and she could feel his heart beat so hard she got afraid if it could be dangerous for him. She was about to pull away, to excuse her behaviour, she had clearly read him all wrong, which was a good thing, because this was so wrong. But then it was li

Amelia had never been this scared in her entire life, not even during the earthquake, she wouldn't be able to bear if anything had happened to him, if he had done something stupid. But then she spotted him, he was laying in the grass on the brink by the lake. At first she was afraid he had fallen, but he was relaxed and had his hands behind his neck, staring into the sky, looking like he had an internal conversation with himself. Connor heard her approach, he knew it was her and for just a moment a smile graced his lips and he whispered. "Thank you". She squatted down next to him and sent him a loving but lightly reproachful glance. "Connor, what are you doing here ? Everyone is looking for you". "Hi Ami, I needed some fresh air, needed to get away for a bit". He had a hard time seeing her, because she was sitting at his right side. She lay down next to him and he knew without being able to neither see nor feel it, that she grabbed his hand, a stab of pain ran through his heart,

One week later "Hi Connor, how are you ? You look much better". Amelia came into his room, she still had no luck getting through to him and her hope was slowly dying. He looked up at her, at least he reacted, but his eyes were still cloudy and empty. "Do I ? Well I hadn't noticed". "Connor please, I heard the doctor say that you were making progress, that your legs have gotten much better". She smiled at him happily. She had been so happy when she heard the doctor tell a nurse, but she didn't understand why no one had told her. He looked out the window. "It is nothing special, nothing to get worked up about, it probably won't get any better than this". "Please don't say that, when it has started getting better, then there is hope for more progress". She smilingly put her hand on top of his. He pulled his hand away like she had literally burned his skin. "Just don't Ami, don't think that just because I can take a couple of fucking steps on my own, I will be okay in a moment, I

Amelia sat on the edge of the bed, her brain running wild rabbit trails. She was waiting for Josh to come back. She tried once again to untangle the threads, but they just seemed to knot more up. She felt like her heart had been ripped from her chest and she tried desperately to keep herself in one piece. She knew Josh loved her, that he would treat her like a princess. And she did love Josh, maybe not in the right way, but she could live with it. If she had to be alone she would fall to pieces and never pick herself up again. She heard the door open and expected it to be Josh coming back, she was ready to accept him, hoping it could push away the pain if only shortly. "Ami ?" No she had to have heard wrong, her head snapped up, no it really was Connor standing in the doorway. His eyes shining yellow and his voice deeper, half a growl. She stared at him, how had he come there ? And why ? He leaned on the door frame, but there was no wheelchair in sight, had he walked ? "Connor