"Oh my God, I'm pregnant."   I said those words loudly as I still couldn't believe I was carrying a life inside me. I was so excited that I'm going to be a mother and Jack a father. We are going to be parents. This whole thing was making me so happy. I wanted to tell Jack this instance that I was pregnant with our first child but I wanted to be more sure. I will wait until the test results from the doctors come. I will get them tomorrow and I can't wait anymore. I'm eagerly waiting for tomorrow to arrive. I should tell Jane about the good news. She must be waiting for my call.    I walked out of the bathroom with a big smile on my face. My happy eyes were still glued to the two red lines on the pregnancy test. Even though I know the result it still felt so unreal to me. The thought of me ha

The biggest nightmare of mine has come to exist.   I just kept looking at those scattered papers with my teary eyes. "Everything was such a big lie" I whispered in my crooked voice. As the realisation came down on me. My throat was clogged with a big lump. I was not even able to swallow it or throw it out. It felt like it was stuck making breathing hard for me.    Each passing second was making breathing harder as the air I breathed felt like it was not meant for me to breathe. Black spots started to form in front of my vision, making me lose my consciousness. I took hold of the corner of the chair in a tight grip stopping myself from falling on the cold floor. The place I was standing was not mine in the first place. Everything felt so distant. Nothing was mine but a big fat lie in the disguise of new hope and a new beginning f

This time I was leaving with my unborn child for real with no thoughts of coming back again.    Tears fell from my eyes and more fresh tears took their place glazing my eyes again and again as the incidents of that day kept playing in front of my eyes. I kept looking at the rising sun. The more bright rays of sun spread in the dark sky, more and more thoughts came running back to me. It's been five months since I left his house and him and everything behind. The wounds on my broken heart were still fresh if It still feels like everything just happened yesterday. Getting out of his house and his life was so hard for me. He didn't let me go easily but I chose to leave and nothing could have stopped me, not even me. It was not an easy decision but I had to make this decision for me, for my baby to start new. A life without everyone whom I loved.   

"Nina your dad"    Only listening to those words spared a very bad feeling through my whole body.     "What happens to him," I asked him in my inpatient's voice as my eyes closed more in worry. What happened to him? He was all good but a little sad when I told him to leave. What happens to him suddenly? All the bad thoughts came running to my brain, making the situation even worse. I was already feeling guilty for not talking to him properly and asking him to go away and now my guild and worry have reached the sky. God, please let him be good. I was still looking at Jack with my worried and tear-filled eyes. His face twitched; he was fighting to say the next words as his light brown eyes moved all over my face.    "Nina stop panicking," he said in his sof

The place where I vowed to never return.    I looked all over the familiar room. I rubbed my eyes to make sleep go away completely to see if the things I was seeing in front of my eyes were true or my delusions. But even after the sleep completely vanished from my eyes I was still present in the same room. The scenario in front of my eyes remained unchanged. I looked around the room this time with a clear vision. It's still the same as when I left it. As if no one was staying here until last night. I should get out of here as soon as possible. I can't stay here anymore, not even a second more. His scent lingers in this room and it was making things hard for me. I don't even know how I came here in the first place. I remember sleeping on the hospital couch and now I'm here in a place I never wanted to return to.    Hospital!