The silence has suffocated the room; you can hear a pin drop. The anticipation that I am about to lose my restraint is a possibility that lies high in the tense air of the room.I have yet not even listened to what Isabella has to say, but the mere fact that the man was in my house is enough to set my blood aflame.Does this woman not understand the concept of a boundary, the whole idea of not letting people into our home that is not welcome here? How am I supposed to trust her when I get deployed?God knows I love her, but sometimes she drives me insane. Can she not think? Can she simply not put together what is right and what is wrong?So as she still tries to speak for what I think I do not want to hear, I make my way to our room before I completely blow up. The raging anger that is suffocating every corner of my body lets loose like a beast. As far as my feet take me, every single object that finds itself in my path shatters in pure brute force agains

Monsters come in all shapes and sizes. Some of them are things you are scared of. Some of them are things that look like things you used to be scared of. Sometimes monsters are people that you should be scared of, like take me, for instance…A crazy Marine with a gun.Fear isn't so difficult to understand. After all, weren't we all frightened as children? Nothing has changed since Little Red Riding Hood faced the big bad wolf. What frightens us today is exactly the same sort of thing that frightened us yesterday. It's just a different wolf.Just a different man.It's true; I am afraid. I am afraid of the world moving forward without me, of my absence going unnoticed. Is it selfish? Am I such a bad person for dreaming of a world that ends when I do? I don't mean the world ending with respect to me, but every set of eyes closing with mine.It is as if the world needs to stop and take stock with me of what I have done wrong.I am afraid.

Sometimes you should go on your gut instinct; that little voice that tells you to tells you what your heart says. I have come to learn that if I have done something that does not feel right, then it ended up not being right.What else I have learned is not to trust another man around your wife, well, least of all one that she was married to. Now there are two big mistakes that I have made in the past day…One…I nearly killed a man.Two…I trusted my wife to come near this man.So as he is lying here, I would love to punch him, but I know around the corner I have a very eager Harrison and Isabella that is waiting to hear what he has got to say. And secondly…I really don't want to go down for assault as well.It is one thing making a mistake, yet another thing to keep making it.Now, Brendan is nearly boiling over from his own anticipation as he cannot get the words out of his mouth, so to p

It is with only one last glance that I look over to where Brendan is sitting with one big anticipating grin on his godawful face. And as he is just about to say another word, I stop him right before he can, "I will rather take my chances in court.""Ha!" He bursts out laughing, "Well, you have just sealed your own fate.""Somehow, Brendan." I pause for a brief moment. "Somehow, I don't think so. But hey, I will give you that for trying to get me to go back on what I stand for as a man. Guess that is why Isabella is with me and not you…I guess."Well, that just should not have been said, for the man turns red hot with anger, "You are going down Jackson; your life is over.""We will see about that. But as good as this was talking to you, I need to go spend the last night as a free man with MY wife. I hope you enjoy your lonely bed," and as I am just about to leave the room, I turn back to him, "I have a feeling I will see you very soon again."

There is a coldness that is starting to settle over my heart in anticipation of what is about to unfold in this courthouse which I am terrified to set my feet in. From what I can gather as I am standing here on the stairs is that our dear Brendan has opted not to make an appearance. I guess the man is very confident that this will play out the way that he wishes it.Thought the question is?Does he think that I will back off and play into his hands?Or does he think that he has gained the upper hand in bringing me down?Well, I myself do not know which is the most terrifying prospect to face. All I know is that I am not going to change the man who I am to become something that I am not.I am a Marine.And I will stick to the oath that I have taken regardless if my career will be ending here today.Looking back over the years, I have realized how far I have grown. I have been through some really rocky times in my life, yet somehow I ha