My eyes were wide when I brushed past my husband and got right in her face. "Listen to me, Monica. Listen to me and hear me once and for all. I don't love you. I won't ever love you. If there is even the smallest amount of the real Monica still left inside of you, then you would understand why. You have no human capacity left inside of you. The real Monica would know that the worst thing you can do is try to be me, to sleep with the men that I still hold in my heart, to keep fucking pushing for something that I don't want. I don't want you, Monica, and this is going to end right now!" Spit flew from my mouth as I lost it and blew up at her."I don't love you," I continued. "I don't like you and I don't want your creepy ass anywhere around me!"Paul tried to take hold of me to calm me, but I shook him loose."Do you get it?" I asked. "Do you finally get it?! If it didn't mean my own death sentence, I'd kill you! That's how much even being around you disgusts me!"Monica looked down.

On Thursday we had a Council meeting that I hoped would be cancelled since Alexis would not be able to attend as our Elder. But no, it didn't work like that.Ferris was sent to fill in for Alexis. Ferris and Alexis were the closest things to friends as Elders could become, so none of us got amped up at the prospect of being in the presence of someone who hated us the way Malarias had. Ferris wore the customary white robe, which was the attire of the Elders convening over a Council meeting, although they had their own individual designs. Ferris' design had intricate gold stitching around the neckline. He was blonde and attractive despite the black eyes and corpse-like skin.It was nice to attend the weekly meeting without having to look at Monica or to see Alexis. And with Malarias off somewhere being punished for sabotaging his own Council, it was a downright good time.Ran was already there. For the most part the meetings were only supposed to be attended by the Council members and

He caught me with a happy laugh. "I wanted to surprise you. I want you here as much as possible, babe. I promise that I will do better…with everything."We kissed until Sam cleared her throat."I'm going to get BJ settled." Sam had BJ propped up on her hip, and BJ was happy to follow her "Mimi" to whatever adventure the new house was sure to hold.Tyler and Jason excused themselves to finish getting the lodge prepared for the ceremony.I wasn't exactly sure what would happen, but Paul assured me that becoming Lupa was like becoming mated and our beasts would take over.I had hoped that Paul and I would break in the new bedroom since I knew the approaching full moon made him horny, but he said we would save that for after the ceremony.I couldn't wait!After the ceremony, I would change and run with the Pack, and our beasts would fuck in a way that no humans could.It always involved blood, claws, and teeth.~*~Tyler and Jason were already at the lodge orchestrating the f

I narrowed my eyes. "Bitch, I don't give a fuck about any of that. I'm here about you and Paul." My eyes began to burn. This didn't seem possible. "I want answers."Sasha smirked. "You want to know how good it was? Well, like I said, Paul came back for seconds."My teeth dropped and I balled my hands into fists.Tyler gripped one of my wrists. "Kim…"I looked past Tyler but didn't move forward. "How long has this been going on?" My voice that sounded nothing like my own but that of all of my demons.Sasha didn't flinch. Her golden eyes and shaggy hair let me know that she was close to changing. "It just started. But I don't intend for it to end. Paul and I belong! We match in ways that you will never be able to.""You trifling, bitch!" I charged forward, but Tobias, Jason, and Tyler held me back.Tyler leaned in toward my ear. "Kim, it's not worth it. If you start, it won't end!""Did you know?" I asked Tyler."I'm sorry," Tyler said, "but I didn't know. I swear I didn't know.

After the feeding, I returned home to the house that Paul and I had made into a home. I had sent BJ and Sam ahead of me, and they were in the family room playing. BJ ran to me and flung herself against my legs as if sensing that things might never be the same again.I picked her up, held her in my arms, and kissed her all over her face until she begged to be put down. I looked at Sam who seemed happy to be back home but still sad about what I was trying to deal with."I'm going to call him," I said.Sam nodded. "I think it's a good idea." She hadn't asked permission to throw in her two cents and had flat out stated, on a number of occasions, that she was disappointed in Paul and his inability to keep his penis in his pants. It hadn't helped that I wanted to defend him. I wasn't much different from him and he had forgiven me time and time again.I went out to the backyard so that I could open our link and speak to him privately, but BJ wanted to come with me. I allowed it, but then