AngelicaIt was absolute mayhem.Zane was running around shirtless while Demetri chased him through the house, Alec and Nat were making out on the balcony, where I'm assuming they thought they were hidden, clothes were coming off faster than I could blink.My own brother was in the corner with Dani while Jay and Pris talked loudly about safe sex.And I was in the middle of it all, grinning, trying to keep track of all of the different conversations, the yelling, the buzz of being around people - nice people.I had never fit in.Not with anyone.And it's not like I suddenly did.But, for the first time, I wasn't sticking out, I was just... part of the gang. And it actually felt really good.Better than I could have ever imagined.Even though I was tired.And dreaming about my pillow."Question," Lincoln pried himself away from Dani and pointed down the hall. "Why doesn't this room have a door?"I felt myself tense. "That's a fantastic question, you should ask Will."Linc

AngelicaI panickedAnyone would panic after that scene.In bed together.Comfortable.Sexy.Hot.Sweating.I gripped the front of my baseball cap and tugged it harder onto my head as the Uber pulled up to set.Had someone said "Hey Ang you look a bit hot, need something?" I would probably ask for a cold slap to the face. This wasn't... real. He was helping me because he had no choice.There was a nothing there.There never would be again.No matter how treacherous my legs were as they wrapped around his body like they belonged together - like we still fit.But Will had changed.Everything about him was different, from the way he carried himself to the way his language had shifted from this playboy to some psycho adult who should have five kids and a mortgage.Tremors wracked my body, maybe I was getting sick, maybe it was him. It wasn't the type of physical response that happens after trying to get clean. A sick metallic taste filled my mouth.I needed a minute.One

AngelicaThe restaurant was closed off to everyone but the cast and crew, I was thankful for the break - and the food.Zane: Hey man, you got your own trailer too? Sweet, I bet it's kick ass, hey side note, does it have mallows? Cuz I can provide the goods. Should we have a trailer party?I glanced down at Will's phone and smiled, a girl could get used to Zane's quirky sense of humor. In a lot of ways he reminded me of Demetri.It had been a hellish day on set.And to thank Will for not suing him, or beating the shit out of him when he strongly suggested Will act in the movie, Jay was taking everyone out to dinner.I wasn't holding out hope that someone wouldn't leave with a black eye or missing tooth, that's just how it was between everyone.Nat was there with Ella. Alec was in the corner cooing in her face like, like a dad. It was the most surreal thing I'd ever seen, rock star Alec Daniels, holding a baby girl's hand and ignoring the rest of the world as if it didn't ex

Angelica"I can't do this anymore." I hung my head and rested it in my hands. Gem grabbed some light lip-gloss and forced me to sit up so she could spread it across my lips. "It's too hard, it feels too real." I choked back a sob and closed my eyes while Gem finished up."This is based on true events, right?" Gem asked.I opened one eye. "Yes.""But you never had that conversation in the last scene with Will?"I squirmed, "We had something similar, a few years ago, back when..." I didn't say it. I didn't want to. "Back when things were bad."She nodded and dropped the gloss back onto the table then put her hands on her hips. "It feels real because it was your life, it is your life, and your past is suddenly now in your life." She reached for my hands.For some insane reason I let her take them. She squeezed. And tears welled behind my stupid eyes again."You're reliving your past through different eyes." She spoke slowly. "Realizing things that maybe you've never thought abou

AngelicaI ran away.Again.This time to the bathroom instead of my doorless room.I was too confused to keep crying.Too tired from such an emotional day to even ask what the guy meant when he said he couldn't be my friend yet needed to be my everything.And a small part of me wanted to run back into his arms and offer him all that I had and see if he'd bite. See if he'd at least be tempted.But I had nothing to offer.Except a dirty past.A shaky present.An unknown future.And guys like Will, they deserved the good girls, the ones with no demons chasing them down, the ones with no scars from needles. The ones who weren't constantly showering in an effort to clean the sins away.I started the shower.And peeled the wet clothes from my body.The bathroom door jerked open.Will stood there, shirtless. His intense gaze moved over my skin like he was caressing me with his eyes. I didn't cover up. There was no point. Because I wasn't a girl who was ashamed of the current