Liam sucks my neck while his hand moves up my inner thigh. I feel tears falling down my cheeks. “You smell so good,” he says. I try to move again, but my body is numb. His fingers play at my entrance and I want to kill him right now, but there's nothing I can do. I have already accepted my fate. He continues to suck my neck, and I feel like throwing up. He sucks my earlobe and removes his hand from my sex and places it on my breast. His hand grabs my breast and I cringe in fear. He pinches my nipple and more tears cascade down my cheekbones. He moves his hand back to my sex and plays with my clit.“I can't wait to be inside of you.” I wish someone could see us. I try to open my mouth to scream or bite him, but my voice comes out as a whisper. My hands are numb, my body is tired like I have wrestled for the first time in my life and need to rest.I try to scream, but the loud music makes it hard for anyone to hear my pleas. Why is this happening to me again?“What the fuck do you th

The next morning, I wake up feeling funny. I open my eyes to find Tay between my legs, my t-shirt up, and his lips on my stomach, leaving a trail of kisses. He trails his tongue down to my belly button, and I moan. His eyes snap up to meet mine. My hand is clenched on my pajama t-shirt and the other on the bedsheets.He diverts his eyes back to my stomach; he kisses below my belly button just where my scar is and his hands tug at my pajama shorts. “Is this, okay?” Tay asks, and I nod. I want to forget about Cole touching me. He pulls my shorts down slowly and throws them on the cool tile floor. He lifts my leg and trails wet kisses going down to my sex. My back arches, my head digs deep into the pillow and my hands clutch on the bedsheets at the burning sensation building in the pit of my stomach.He sucks on my inner thigh, and I moan. He moves up, still between my legs, and molds our lips together. My hands go around his neck. The kiss is slow but passionate. I tuck the roots of h

Tay pulls down his boxers, comes back, and hovers over me between my legs. He looks deep into my eyes and moves his hand to the bedside counter. I pull my lower lip between my teeth as he opens the drawer and takes out a foil packet. His eyes snap back to mine. His bottom lip is a bit swollen, and his chest is heaving up and down. I watch as he rips the packet with his teeth and takes out the silky condom.My eyes go down to his length and watch as he slips the silky sheath on his hard big shaft. I wait in anticipation of what is coming.“Tell me to stop and I will, okay?” he says and I nod as I don't have the voice to say it.I feel his length at my heat, and my heart skips a beat. My mind tells me not to let him have control of my body, but my heart says otherwise. I am fully vulnerable and exposed to him.I push the thoughts of that night at the back of my head and focus back on Tay.Tay slips in, but not fully, and I grip on his arm. He pulls out, then slips back in slowly. I

I open my eyes and look around. It's dark outside and raining. I haven't slept so peacefully in a long time. I roll off the bed and slip in my slippers and walk out of the room. I pull my hair into a messy bun as I walk down the steps.“Are you being serious right now?” a voice says, and I walk into the kitchen. Tay and Andrew are standing behind Future, looking at the screen of her phone.“What are you guys doing?” I ask and walk to them.Nate is on the screen, and he looks like he just finished showering.“Hey sister-in-law, how was your first night in jail?” he chuckles and I want to smack him right now.“Don't start,” I warn, but they all just laugh at me. I grab an apple from the fruit basket on the counter and sit on the barstool across from them.“Did you guys see the latest news?” Nate asks, and the guys shake their heads no.“Well, you better check,” he says, and Andrew grabs his tablet from the kitchen counter. I place my elbow on the counter and leans my face in my p

PrologueTAYHeartbreak, I’m a stranger to it. I know the feeling of pain from losing my sister and mother but the pain I’m feeling from losing Olivia is beyond anything I could ever imagined. The pain of losing the woman I love feels like my soul is ripping itself out of my body. I don’t know why I am still standing here, in the same position Olivia left me in when she drove away. I guess that was just me hoping she’d come back, like she always did. I know I fucked up bad, but at that time I wasn't thinking. I just wanted her to be with me forever until we had gray hair. I have never felt so empty in my entire life. It feels like my soul left with her. Olivia is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She doesn't have to wear makeup to make a guy kneel for her. I hate myself for what I did to her. I didn't want to do it, but I knew she would leave once she found out my status. Everyone stays away from people like me once they know and look at you like you are a parasite, and I d