I spent the next few days hanging out at Ian’s with the kids, it felt really nice to not have to look over my shoulder or worry about who was going to come or go. The more time I was away from Steve the more myself I felt, I should be sad about everything but I just wasn’t.I love Steve with all I had, he was my best friend and we had an insane connection, but he was always so closed and thought differently then me. We clashed a lot raising the kids, maybe we just needed a little break from each other and see what will happen.Today Ian was supposed to meet with Steve and talk to him, he has been difficult to get a hold of. I was a bit nervous to hear what he would say to him, Ian has been amazing with me and the kids around. He worked a lot but when he was done work he would come home and hang out with us, he was actually really funny and we laughed so much. I was beginning to plan our next move, I felt guilty staying at Ian’s, he wouldn’t let us contribute to anything, I got a c

We packed everything up to head on our little trip, we were going to stop at my father’s on the way there for dinner. I sent my father a text with the details and that I was bringing a new friend who has helped me get away.He seemed a bit surprised with that but was happy to meet the person who helped his daughter and grandchildren. I actually felt nervous about my father meeting Ian and I wasn’t sure why, I usually didn’t care about it but I did this time. Maybe it was just the circumstances of it all.Once we packed up Ian’s car I realized I didn’t even notice he drove anything besides the cop car, he had a really fancy truck. It was black and lifted with gigantic tires. I laughed as I tried to put the kids in, Ian was right behind me helping me put them up into their seats. Jeremy was laughing with excitement, he had a fascination with big trucks.We laughed and talked the entire way and every now and then Ian would speed up and make Jeremy squeal with excitement. Heather and Juni

We only spent one day at the cabin, we spent the day at the beach with the kids. I dropped the kids off at my father’s on our way back to town. My father didn’t seem too happy about the rushed court date. We got back to Ian’s house pretty late, I went down to my room and he went into his, it was awkward with him after we kissed, I wasn’t quite sure what to do.I jumped in bed and I heard my phone go off as I rolled to the side of the bed and unlocked my phone, it was from Steve,Steve: Your lawyer contacted mine, guess I’ll see you tomorrow beautiful. I rolled my eyes as I read over the message again, I tossed and turned with the thought of seeing Steve tomorrow. I felt anxious to see him at the court house, I got up after attempting to sleep for a few hours and began to get ready. I wanted to look good and show Steve what he was missing.I'm not quite sure why I even cared what he thought, he has seen me at my best and at my worse, but I wanted him to see I was doing good.I wore a

As we walked into the courtroom I could feel Steves eyes on me. I felt uncomfortable walking in there and I wished I wouldn’t of asked Ian to not come. I wouldn’t of done that with Steve although maybe that’s what I needed to do and get it over with. We always had a very physical relationship, maybe I just needed to do it one last time. We never did break things off, I sort of felt better that I actually did even though it was in a odd way.Steve was the most attractive man I’ve ever laid eyes on, but that could just be because we have a lot of unresolved feelings. Love can do strange things, I remember thinking Darren was so handsome and then after I moved on I realized he wasn’t that good looking especially after I got to know him. He was handsome to a lot of people but no longer to me. His personality made him so ugly.I walked up to my lawyer she looked me over,“You look flushed dear, I told you don’t worry. I am really good at what I do, Ian made sure you had the best lawyer

I went to say something as Ian looked me over as I read the message a few times, I didn’t know what to say. I looked up at him trying to find the right words but nothing came to my mind, nothing I could say would help me right now. I whispered,“I’m sorry, it was a mistake.”He didn’t answer anything as I walked over to my room and got dressed, I began to pack my bags as I walked up the stairs. Ian was still sitting at the table, I could tell he was trying to figure everything out, he looked shocked when he saw me with my stuff.“Are you going back to Steve?”I shook my head, “No, like I said that was a mistake. I was confused and I guess I just needed to make sure things were over. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, I was confused. Two weeks ago I was married to him and now I met you and its confusing. Well it was.”He looked me over, “Where are you going then?”I shrugged, “I’m not sure exactly but I’m sure you don’t want me here.”He shook his head, “Go put your stuff back Kay