ANTONIOErica refused to talk to me. After her outburst in the hospital, I had managed to control her and received many little scratches from her blunt nails. Her words still echoed in my brain and made my blood run cold. “I should've died. Why did you save me?” She had fought me and cried all the time until the doctor had come and given her medicine to calm her down.“It’s not something out of ordinary. Panic attacks are a norm after overdosing. Patients feel a little overwhelming with the effects of drugs still in their system and especially with someone who took them with the intention of commi—” At my hard glare the doctor had stopped and told me to keep an eye on her and to give her as much fluids as we can. And suggested that we should also consider a psychiatrist for her. She wasn’t fucking crazy, my little devil. Ephraim had saved the doctor’s face from being rearranged when he had pulled him out of the hospital room. But right now, I couldn't help but feel all the more guil

ERICAAntonio was reaching his breaking point. I could feel it in the way his golden eyes glinted when I ignored him. I felt his rage peeking through the gentleness when he had asked me this morning if I was going to keep ignoring him. I could feel the thread of his patience stretched taut with tension, on the verge of breaking apart. And despite all of that, despite knowing that he will lose his control if I didn’t give something to him, I couldn’t come to terms with the loss my heart has already accepted and the pain that was so overwhelming that if I started speaking, I’d only scream and cry.Not only his turbulent emotions, I could feel my own walls trembling with the force of my decision, the steps that I’d have to take. I tried to keep my feelings, my anger that came from my heartache under lock and key but that lock was slowly weakening with the pressure and the time that passed with each second and minute and hour pulling me closer to the end which was clearly in sight. Some

ERICA“I’d die instead of being used as a weapon by you to hurt my family. I will do anything to not let you hurt them, they don’t deserve it.”“And I deserve this?” He asked, his eyes a pair of burning inferno. His words cutting me, slice by slice as he said, “Do I deserve to have every person I care about be taken away from me? Do I deserve to be remain in this cold world all alone despite how fucking much I try to protect everyone around me, but in the end they will just leave me? That’s what I deserve?”Silence reigned between us before I answered through thick tears crowding my throat, “No. No one deserves that.” I fisted my hands by my side unless I reach for him. “But I can’t give you what you need at the expense of my family, at the expense of my sister’s happiness.”“It won’t come to it.” I looked up at him. He took my hand in his, his touch gentle as his thumb caressed the back of my hand. “I am done.” My heart squeezed in pain even though it was the same sentiment going th

ERICAAntonio pulled his pants up and picked me up from the floor with my half undone clothes. His strides were long and sure as he took me to our bedroom upstairs. Our, the thought made my chest ache, it wouldn’t be for longer. I looked at him, my insides crumbling for what I planned to do but I knew it was the only way out. Betray the only man who showed me the love I needed and didn't think could ever get, or let him ruin my sister’s happiness, the sister who was the only light that had me living the nightmare my childhood was.When we reached the bedroom, he walked to the bed, not a hint of tiredness was shown on his handsome face as he put me down on the bed. I watched as he undressed. One by one his clothes came off, revealing his huge body with those toned muscles and bulky built. He was really a mountain of a man living in a castle on a cliff. And he took me as his captive, who like all the clichés before me fell for my own captor. But I knew, like I was scared of, it wasn’t S

ERICA“I want you to love me.” I said, my voice rough and tight with my emotions. It took me a moment to raise what I had said she fire different it was then what I was going to say.Before I could rephrase it, I felt his hand travelled from my stomach to the valley between my breasts to my throat. He loosely circled my throat as he replied, “I already do, little devil.”It should shock me but it didn’t. Hadn't he already said it and showed to me in so many ways, but those simple words had a different effect on me. The love starved little girl cried inside me. She wanted to hold on to him tightly and didn’t want to let go. Our eyes locked and a tear escaped from mine. I smiled, trying to shake it off as I replied, “I know.” I licked my lips and said, “I meant... Make love to me, please.” And if possible love me forever, even after my betrayal because I will love you to the end of the world. He dropped his forehead to mine and said in a voice so soft that I had never heard from him be