After walking out of the club at a pretty good speed , l lastly leaned against the cold wall as l breathed heavily . After calming down , l raised up my head and looked at the sky . I only wished it could take me back in the past and see where l went wrong with Mark . I don't remember doing anything wrong to him . Even though he ignored me , l still played it cool but him embarrassing me in front of the people was unbearable ." What should l do now ? " , With eyes still raised up , l inwardly asked myself . I have tried every trick but nothing worked . " Alexa please don't run , don't walk away from me , l don't know what l said but if l made you upset am sorry " , Just as l was still lost in my thoughts , l all of the sudden heard Adrian's voice and at that my head snapped at him . " Why did he follow me? , why is he coming towards me ?", I asked myself as l watched him walk towards me ." You have done nothing , l'm just tired , l have had a long day " , l uttered out after him rea

" It's fine , l do understand " , After failing to reply him , he whispered before he resumed on sucking my breasts . Through out the heated up moment , l kept moaning out softly as l felt his rock hard monstrous c**k which was lying hot on my lower stomach . Every thing was fine at first but things changed when l felt him lower down my stomach ." What if he sees that am no longer tight , Is it the reason why mark doesn't want to have sex with me " , Worry filled me up as l thoughts flowed down in my head . I could now recall it , it was after I gave birth to Ivan ,when Mark showed no more interest in me . It only meant that he no longer enjoyed himself . Maybe he found it that am no longer tight . " Whatever you thinking about stop it , l can see the wheels turning in your head " , His voice distracted the train of my thoughts . " I'm scared am not going to be like the ones you used to sleep with before , am inexperienced and am no longer ..... " , I trailed off as shyness took ove

ALEXA'S POV.How could emptiness be so heavy , to feel unworthy of love , to feel lost . That's how I have been feeling since that night . It has been two weeks since l slipped out of his bed while he was asleep . While sleeping with him , l felt good in his warmth but I instantly changed my mind when I recalled that Mark was going to come back home at 11am . I didn't want him to notice that l was away .After that night , Mark and l haven't spoken yet which l was glad . After having a good pleasurable night with Adrian , It made me realize that it has been me who always tried my level best to make things work out with Mark . I realized that he felt happy to ignore me , he felt happy for me to be his cleaner , his maid that is what am l to him. That night l got home at ,4 am with a thought that l was early but shockingly l found Mark already sleeping soundly in the bed . At first while standing up in the door l felt my body freeze the instant l saw him asleep in the bed . I went out

ALEXA'S POV .The following 20 minutes l was driving to Mark's office in silence . With no music or radio playing , my brain was only thinking how badly Mark was going to embarrass me . I was honestly scared but I had to do this for the kids especially Ivan and Chrissy because Jessica was seated with a gloomy look on her face . She was unhappy but she had to bear up with it just like me ." Kids we are here , right ? , Remember no screaming , no running , no fighting , if there is any of that we going straight back home " , l warned in a serious voice and the two nodded their heads in reply . This time on entering , l didn't go to the receptionist , we got straight to the elevator heading to Mark's office .While inside the elevator , I didn't even dare to lift my head and look at the people who were inside . I had my own problems and l didn't want more . We stepped out after a couple of stops and walked towards Mark's office . All along the way , my stomach was going crazy and no mat

With the home chores done , the rest of the day went in a blur . I took the kids to the park just like they requested but l was far away from them as they played . I was only thinking about the job that l could do and be beneficially stable . I was tired of Mark humiliating me .When l noticed that the time was past 6 , l drove the kids back . After preparing them quickly , the kids and l finally sat down for dinner . After Mark lying to them , no one cared about him . Ivan also didn't ask me anything about him . We all ate our dinner in silence but then just as we ate , all of the sudden the front door immediately flung open . This all made us to turn our attention to it and surprisingly Mark made his way in to the dining room . It was seriously unbelievable , Mark had never come home at this time . " Daddy you home ? , Can you sit with me please " , The kids were excited with this change that even before he could sit down , Ivan stood up and held up his hand . " No daddy sit with m