ForgivenessWe tend to blame others for what happened to us even in the first place. We also have to blame ourselves for letting things happen 'cause we also have control over it. The grudges, the jealousy, the pain that we felt during those times, we let those control us until we lose ourselves through the process of blaming them.I was so mad that I even planned to take revenge, I was mad that I almost forgot that these people once became part of my life. I was so mad that I forgot I was wrong too.Is it wrong to seek for a chance to see them wrecked just like you? Is it wrong that you just let them feel how it feels to be played in someone's hand? Because for me, there's nothing more satisfying than seeing them crying because of what I did.I admit my heart was full of grudge, I let it fill the void until it occupied the whole place in my heart. I let it change me because that's what happens whenever we get hurt, we change not because we chose it, but because that's the effect of t

Real Dad"Bwisit ka!" inis na sigaw ko kay Silver at hinagis sa kanya ang unan na nakalagay sa sofa. He chuckled that made me pissed more. "Kung hindi ko kaya pinigilan baka si Zenith na ang nakakita sa inyo," tumatawang saad niya kaya hiyang-hiya kong tinakpan ang aking mukha kasabay ng pagtili. "Fuck you!" "Hey, that's bad," pangangaral niya. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "I hate you." "Everyone does." I rolled my eyes at him and pinched his biceps. Ang tigas. "Umalis ka na, magseselos na naman si Styx sa papunta-punta mo rito." "Kakadating ko lang tapos pinapaalis mo agad ako. At isa pa, Ms. Xedler, ako kaya ang may-ari ng bahay na 'to." "Alam ko naman, hindi ako nagtatanong." "Damn you, kung hindi ka lang cute." Tumayo na ako at naglakad papunta sa hagdan para magpahinga. Kakaalis lang nila Styx at ang isa namang ito ang nanggugulo. "I'm just going to rest, lock the door after you left," bilin ko at naglakad na pataas. Natulog lang ako at bumangon para kumain ng tanghalia

Another Plan"Noong magising ako matapos ma-comatose, nagulat na lang ako dahil may bata sa tabi ko." Mahina akong natawa nang maalala ang itsura ni Zenith noong baby pa siya. "Kasi ang akala ko umabot lang ng araw o linggo 'yong pagkakatulog ko pero ang sabi ng doctor, anak ko raw ang sanggol." Humigpit ang yakap sa akin ni Styx at tila ba pinapakalma ang sarili matapos marinig ang mga sinabi ko. I felt comfortable talking about my past now, kahit paunti-unti ay kinakaya ko sa tulong ni Styx."What did you do next?" Binaon niya ang mukha sa leeg ko at mas hinigpitan pa ang yakap sa akin. Nasa kwarto lang kami at nakahiga sa kama habang nagkukwentuhan, magkasama na naman si Zenith at ang mga tito niya ngayon kaya may oras kami para gawin ito. "At first I was shocked," tumatawang sagot ko ngunit bakas doon ang sakit. "Hinanap din kita sa kanila but they told me that no one tried to look for me after I vanished just like that." "Tell me more, please." "I tried to reach out to you noo

Styx SyruisWarning : Violence I remained looking at the door while hearing my parents exchanging words while yelling. My nanny, which was standing beside me looked at me worriedly but I remained my face blank."Siguro labas muna tayo? Maaga pa naman," she said while stammering. I held my trolley bag tightly as I hear my father's raging voice."Do you think I'm stupid to believe that you don't love that bastard anymore?!" His voice was filled with anger and jealousy. I couldn't believe that this happen everytime I go to school.I let my nanny held my hand and guide me outside the gate. I once look at the house I treated as home and after 10 years of existence, I couldn't feel any comfort in this house anymore.I was waiting for nanny Ayeng to arrive, she said she needs to go to the counter to order our foods. It's my first time eating in a fast food chain and I'm sure mom will get mad when she'd learn about this.I played with my fingers while recalling what happened earlier. Actually

Styx SyruisI wanted to bury everything and look for her again, but that wasn't exactly what happened. I am ready to forget what happened and start a new life with her because there's no point in lying to myself that I no longer have feelings for her.That day she stepped inside my office, I felt the familiar feeling in my chest, and my heart still beats fast for her. Alam ko na marami nang nagbago sa kanya at 'yon ang napatunayan ko nang magsimula siyang maging malamig sa pagtrato sa akin.I knew that Mr. Xedler, the man who adopted her, died of a heart attack, and I admit it was all because of me. I threatened him to tell Zyxhiaxy everything I knew about his underground business, and he was scared for a reason. Nakita ko kung paano siya matigalgal sa kinatatayuan nang makita ang lahat ng ebidensya na mayroon ako laban sa kanya.That day, he died while his knees were bent, and Duex witnessed it. Wala akong naramdaman na awa maski saglit nang makita siyang mabawian ng buhay sa harapan