+ "I'm leaving, leaving Italy, Berlin, and Prague behind to live in Madrid, Spain. Lucero is giving me a hand, one that I don't want to disregard because I have a lot ahead of me. I've put aside those hours of crying and mourning. I am a woman who wants to work hard for the child I carry inside. Right now, I'm staying in a hotel while Lucero is in New York for a family reunion. She's left me here with the condition that I stay calm and not try to hide from her. She's promised me, even swearing on her life, that she'll always be with me. I don't want her to focus on me; she has a life to take care of. I don't want her to go out of her way for me; it wouldn't be fair. That's why I haven't stayed locked up inside today. No, I've gone out to look for work, no matter if it's as a domestic worker or even just making copies. Work is work. Even though I don't have my resume with me, I'll enter anywhere with a sign that says 'worker wanted.' I have the drive; the symptoms of pregnancy won't

+ I'm about to scream to the sky, I have a job all by the grace of God who never abandons me, and I have the job that I was so afraid of losing. I have already signed a six-month contract, and I was welcomed as one of the members of the hotel. It was quite a journey. Yesterday, Dolores accompanied me to the hotel room and while I was inviting her to have a cup of coffee, she was looking for a way to help me with the documents, such as letters of recommendation, health certificate, study certificate, work experience, resume, and a list of where I have worked. Dolores told me that it was crazy to think that I could get all of those documents overnight. However, not everything was so bad, as the only document that I couldn't get was the health certificate because no one would hire a pregnant woman. After leaving her coffee cup on the table, I told her that everything they were asking for was on my phone and that I just needed to print it out, although there was one thing I couldn't g

+ How terrible, I haven't slept a wink and my phone has been having nightmares all night. With a prolonged sigh, I forced myself out of bed and headed to the bathroom to take a shower. A long, busy day of work awaits me. I haven't slept a damn thing, and I can't ignore the thought of the stupid man leaving the woman he loved. It's been a month, and I still feel remorse and regret for leaving Gisela. I wonder what has become of her. Everything I gained with her was lost in just seconds. Since that day, everything has been terrible because I have to support myself and face my parents. They don't accept my separation from Gisela and, above all, that I have abandoned her with a baby. My mother hasn't left my house, even though she is furious. She continues to follow me and reproach me for being a bad son. Seeing that her presence bothers me, I have decided to travel and lose myself completely in my work, as it is the only thing that makes me forget what torments me. I close my eyes a

Maria and I managed to arrive at the hotel on time, thank God, because both of them kept asking me who the person I'll see after work is and what triggers the change in my mood and demeanor. On the way, the two of them turned into "Sherlock Holmes," a pair of investigators, wanting to know about my life, my other side of the coin, the one I don't want to touch because it hurts me. They didn't let my mind process or discuss the Adal issue, "How does he know I'm in Spain?" Also, what's wrong with him knowing? It's not like he regrets it and comes to ask for forgiveness for his confusion and abandonment. I don't believe it. To calm them down a bit, I told them I didn't want to touch the subject and that after talking to the person who called me on the phone, I would meet with them and bring them up to date on everything. Of course, I've dreamed like the psychopath who keeps secrets, now both of them will have a lot of tools to talk sensibly. Even though they weren't very calm about w

Oh, I didn't leave the hotel alone. Lucero made sure I got in a taxi and that this was going to be the last time I did the crazy thing of leaving her side. She didn't come with me because I told her I needed to say goodbye to the two women who opened their home and heart to me. I owe them the truth and to face them, I need to tell them that I have to leave, that I planned to stay here for a while, but after talking to Lucero's parents, there was no doubt in my mind that my path is to leave, prepare myself, and be someone for my baby. I don't want him to lack anything. I hope they understand that I have to seek improvement and stability, as if I stay, I run the risk of being fired and Adal showing up with a letter I wasn't expecting. Taking the baby away to hurt me, it all sounds so crazy, but as it could be true, it could also be a lie. What I can't do is sit still; I have to get off the unexpected path. "Thank you very much," I get out of the car, with no intention of paying. The h