-----~[AMELIA]~-----I puff my cheeks like a little kid as I welcome my present adorable distractions in with a joyous frenzy. The energy I feel on my face due to the extreme effort I am making to avoid looking like a guilty pig is excessive. I am putting so much effort into it I don't want them to notice anything suspicious about me. I don't want them to know about the issue at all. everything that happened was in the past and it has to end there. My experience with Nathan was the first and it will remain the last. It was all a mistake and I am not about to let my marriage go down because of that one silly decision I made. I am so sorry friends but you do not have to know about anything at all. So it is going to remain a secret just as I have planned. I take in a deep breath as their elated faces examine me for a little while. "What's up girl? You are looking damn elated today. " Isabella exclaims as she makes her way in with her arms wide apart set for an open friendly embrace. I

-----~[AMELIA]~-----The confusion eroding my system right now at the moment is so excessive I find myself spilling rubbish. I don't even know what I am saying anymore. I am just a nervous wreck right now at the moment. I am practically conflicted and confused. It is going to be such a hard feat trying to keep this huge dangerous secret from these friends of mine. I don't want them to know about this, not one bit. but it seems everything I am saying right now is just leading them towards the issue and if this continues a little longer, I might probably end up speaking things I'm not supposed to speak. This is getting harder than I thought. When did it all get to this? Isabella and Amanda keep gazing at me questioningly. The intensity and their faces makes me know that my answer is not satisfactory enough to their hearing. They want more. They want more explanation. They need more clarification about whatever rubbish I am spilling before them. I take in a deep breath and chuckle. “I

-----~[AMELIA~]-----I have gotten myself into the hardest situation I can ever think of. My stupidity has gotten the better of me and right now I find myself trembling with nervousness as these inquizitive friends of mine keep staring at me waiting endlessly for my reply to the question just asked. I don't even know what prompted me in the first place to bring up this dreaded topic once again. I wanted it to end and I want them to forget I ever said something like that. I don't want them to keep being persistent about it till I am forced to spill out something I'm not supposed to say. It is definitely going to be a very great situation and I am not ready to encounter being tagged as a bad personality. Not right now at this moment.' Well aren't you?' My mind questions me and I blink. Just what the heck. 'You have already had sex once with your husband's brother. Isn't that enough a reason for you to be tagged as a very bad friend and housewife?' I resist the urge to clutch at my

-----~[AMELIA]~-----I honestly really don't understand this fellow anymore. I don't just get him at all. He is just totally confusing and infuriating at this moment. What the hell does he want right now? Just what does he really want with me? Why the hell is he always in my way? Why is his presence always evident wherever I'm going? I don't mean to complain about this right now or but this feels like a perfectly good stalking experience. Just..... urgh. I hate this guy. He has long ago succeeded in getting whatever he wants from me. What does he want again? Why can't he just for f**king sake stop following my life? Urgh!!! I am really hoping deep down within me that he is not going to come back to me for more. I really wish he doesn't because from this moment henceforth I am totally and completely done with everything that has to do with him. Anything related to Nathan at the moment is completely off my bucket list. Whatever going on between us is completely over and I want to m

-----~[AMELIA]~-----He pins me against the wall with his hands on either side of my head staring down at me intensely with the look of pleasure in those enchanting eyes of his. I am finding it extremely hard to think properly. My breathing is hoarse. I am finding it hard to think properly with the close proximity between us. I can feel his warm strawberry mint breath against my face and it makes me shiver a little bit. This ain't good. Not one bit. This ain't fair at all. I am having an internal struggle within me. A part of me is fighting really hard to grab his shirt and push him away roughly with every power within me while another part of me is craving to feel those warm lips against mine. I am so stupid right? You can say that again. This is so not good.I step back a bit trying to make a move to avoid him but I notice to my dismay that the wall is directly behind me and I have nowhere else to run to. Fuck!!! I bat my eyelids with confusion as he chuckles aloud and leans closer