Raina~Here I am again starting at the moon, like a lost lover. I do not if I should feel happy or sad. Happy because my husband took my side and sad that he took my side because I am his wife. Nothing more nothing less. "Please stay" I begged and held his wrist without looking in his way. I let out a sigh of relief as he sat on the other side. Heavy silence lingered between us, I had so much to say but he was too angry to listen to me. He is too sad to understand me. "The moon is looking pretty today," I say and kept on gazing at the serene moon. "It has never looked ugly," he says with a deep sigh. Indeed moon has never looked ugly, even after having so many flaws, it still shines the brightest in the sky. "Why are we like this, Agastya? Why can't we just stay happy like normal people?" I asked, but I wanted something else. I wanted to ask, that why does not he trust me. Why does he get influenced by every damn thing? He did not speak a single word. Maybe he does not want to o

Agastya~ I clicked my tongue as I read the name of Evans flashing on my wife's phone screen. He has been calling for the past fifteen minutes. What do you have with my wife Evans? I slid the green button and brought the phone closer to my ear "Raina, why are you not picking up my calls? Are you okay?" a low chuckle escaped from my lips. Concerned much. "Raina lives with her husband, hence you do not need to worry about her," I say in a monotone. I heard him sigh "Hi Agastya, how are you?" I rolled my eyes at his distant tone. "Why have you been calling my wife?" I ask, this time in a stern manner. He has to get this idea that I do not want him to talk to my wife. "Umm, I just wanted to ask, if she is okay?" I took a deep breath " Let me remind you one more time, Raina lives with her husband you do not have to worry about her. And not talking to you is her own decision after the stunt you pulled she wants to stay away from you as far as possible. And do not take her pity as someth

Raina~ I wiped my tears but it did not help, because my eyes watered again and my cheeks got damp again. How can I say something this cruel to him? Why do you always bring out the worst in me Agastya? Why fucking why. God, he must be feeling awful, but he made me awful too. I sunk my face deeper into the pillow as I heard him approaching the bed. But he did not lay on it like usual, instead, I felt him walking away. Abd I waited, I waited for him to come back but he did not. My heart clenched painfully, does he not love me anymore? He was the one who said I must talk to him, that I should never ever keep things in my mind, and now he is doing the same. Why is not he asking me? I will tell him everything if he asks me. But he kept on distancing himself away from me. My body aches to be with him, my hands my lips everything does not feel mine anymore. It feels until like if he does touch me, I will live in an illusion. This is so fucked up and I am hurting. *** Day 3 Dear Diar

Raina~ Things are getting worse day by day between me and Agastya. Abd it is so depressing. We have not been on talking terms. Last night he did not come home and I did not call either I was worried all night, but I texted Nitin and asked if Agastya was safe. And he informed me that Agastya is performing a critical surgery, so he will not be coming home. But it is almost 6 in the evening today, he has been out for almost two days and the worst part is he has not called. He did not even text. Even though my ego is stopping me from calling my jerk of a husband, I pick up my phone from the nightstand and am about to dial but tossed my phone on the side as I hear someone climbing upon the stairs and I know that someone is. I took a quick glance at him and found him already staring at me. My breath hitched, he was looking at me as if he wanted to hug me tightly, but he did not make a move, and neither did I. I will not take the initiative every time, saving our relationship is his re

Raina~ "Stop pacing back and forth, you will get tired" I snapped my head back at my sister who had just spoken to me for the first time after her shutting down of her engagement. Well shutdown is not a good way to use it. But who cares? "Why do you care? You did not care when you were about to skap me in front of the whole world, then why now?" I ask. She rolled her eyes abd then sharpened them at me "I do not care but I know, how much of an attention seeker you are. Everyone's focus will turn to you from the baby." I gulped the painful lump down my throat. My eyes watered abd my heart hurt badly, her words has sliced it painfully. Attention seeker is that what she thinks of me. "Why do you hate me so much?" I ask because I want to know why she postures me. It's not like that I and Tara have had the best relationship in the past. We always had that bittersweet relationship, we fought but reconciled at the end. Because she was a little closer to my age than my other siblings. Bu