ShawnA week passed since we lost the twins and Abbigail has days she's completely zoned out and I can't get through to her. On those days I hold her close and everyone leaves us alone. On days she's herself, she's happy, like we never lost the twins. On those days we make sweet, passionate love and the rest of the world is forgotten.As for today, today we're getting married. She stayed with Beth and Melanie and I stayed with my parents. I've yet to see her new dress, but I was warned I might get excited, if you know what I mean.I was sitting at my parents' kitchen table, pushing my eggs around on my plate. My mother places her hand on my arm, a concerned look her face. "Sweetheart, is everything okay? You've been unusually quiet this morning," she says with concern and worry in her tone."I'm worried about Abbigail. Yesterday she was the most distant since we lost the twins. She wouldn't let anyone near her, not even Shelby," I choke in a whisper as tears fill my eyes. "I hope today
AbbigailWe partied long into the night. I was feeling tired a few hours into the reception and curled up in a chair for a quick nap. I must have slept longer than I thought because I woke up covered in Shawn's uniform jacket. There was some light music playing and quiet conversations in the hall. I slip her jacket on and Shelby lays her head in my lap. I scratch behind her ear and she leads me to Shawn. I walk into her arms and press my face in her neck. I breathe in her sweet smell of vanilla and lavender and let out a content sigh. She rubs my back and I lower my head to her chest. I still felt a little tired and let out a tired sigh. "Did you sleep okay? I tried to keep things quiet so you could sleep," Shawn says in a soothing tone. "I did, thank you," I say quietly. "I'm still tired though.""Would you like to leave? Most of the guests are already gone and Melanie just offered to finish taking care of things here so I could get you out of here," she says softly kissing the top
AbbigailIt's Christmas Eve, the day before my due date for the twins. A lot has happened since Shawn and I got married. For instance, Tim and Tina were arrested for arson and two attempts of murder in the first degree. Kelly and her twins were put into foster care. Shawn sold our house for the same price she bought it for and we moved into her grandparents heavily guarded estate. It was left to her, but she was going to use it as a second home or holiday gatherings. Beth is carrying on well in her pregnancy and it's given Shawn and I hope to having our own child. Shawn and Melanie have been solving case after case and taking the next few days off for the holiday. This morning I woke up and my stomach felt uneasy. Shawn was already gone from bed and I go looking for her. My head started to spin as I stood up from the bed and use the walls for support. I make my way slowly towards the kitchen when the smell of orchids fills my nose. I let Melanie take my weight as I stumble from the w
AbbigailI woke the next morning and was immediately hit with a wave of nausea. I took slow, deep breaths to help subside the nausea. Shawn sits up next to me, hands me a peppermint and rubs my stomach. I let out a relieved breath, lean against Shawn and our door opens. I smell Joyce's perfume moments later and reach for her. She gives me her hand and presses two fingers on the inside of my wrist. Moments later the nausea is gone and I let out a relieved sigh. "I don't know what you just did, but thank you," I say in a relieved whisper. "It's a pressure point to help relieve nausea," Joyce says softly and kisses my forehead. "Sorry to barge in, I just wanted to check on you after yesterday.""It's okay, I am thankful for your concern. I no longer have any nausea. No apologies necessary," I say with a light smile. "I also wanted to steal you away. It's your first Christmas in our family and we have a tradition that my mother started years ago, when I was your age," Joyce chokes quiet
AbbigailI woke to Shelby growling protectively. I sit up and feel Shawn move in front of me. "You need to knock when we have Shelby in here and Abbigail is napping," Shawn says in an annoyed tone, keeping my naked body covered from whomever was at the door."Sorry," Henry says embarrassed. "Your mother sent me to get you girls for dinner.""We'll be right down," Shawn says quietly and our door closes. "Sorry you had to get woken up this way.""I'm glad I had you to shield my body," I say with a smile and hug at her back. Tears fill my eyes remembering what happened before I fell asleep. "I'm sorry I left you like that. I was going to take a cold shower to cool off, but Melanie showed up. I'm not sure which I feel most sorry for, walking away from you the way I did or having sex with Melanie."I climb out of bed before she could say or do anything and head to our closet. I grab some fresh clothes and get dressed. Shawn takes me in her arms as I finish and says in a choked whisper, "I f
AbbigailBeth and I were being released from the hospital after getting into a car accident last night. Shawn broke her arm, protecting me from an airbag and swerved the car to avoid the full force of the impact. Both of our babies are fine and lucky to not have lost them.I haven't heard from my mother since she apologized and left my hospital room. I ask Shawn to call her for me and she did, even though she was still mad at her. I wanted to tell her my reasons for wanting the implants and hopefully she could understand. I was in the middle of taking a bath when there was a soft knock on the door. "Come in," I say quietly and moments later I could smell both my mother and Shawn's perfume. "Shawn, can you help me out? I feel a little dizzy.""I'll get Melanie, she'll be able to carry you to bed from the tub," she says softly and I nod. "If I hear her become stressed with you here, you'll be leaving.""I understand," my mother chokes quietly. "Shawn," I say quietly in a breathy whispe
ShawnCharlotte, Abbigail and I were sitting in her eye doctor's office. She was a nervous wreck and crushing my left hand. He just told her he could install the implants on her birthday, a few months from now. By then she should be in second trimester and the nausea from the pregnancy should be over.Her mother and I exchange concerned looks and I kneel in front of her. I kiss the hand that's crushing mine and look into her blind eyes. I could see a swarm of emotions showing in them and could only imagine how she must be feeling right now. I rise between her legs, place her arms around my neck and her legs wrap around my waist as I stand up. Her relieved sobs were muffled in my neck and I do my best to rub her back in comfort with my right arm in the cast. "Let's get her home," Charlotte says in a soothing tone and turns her attention to the doctor. "Thank you, we'll see you in a few months."Abbigail clings to me as she calms down, her breaths shuttering as she calms down from her s
AbbigailAfter today's events, I understand how Shawn must be feeling about becoming a parent. We lost our twins mid pregnancy and a car accident a few days ago nearly killed me and cost Beth her baby. She's afraid she won't be able to have our own children and that I'm going to leave her. I also have a feeling that Beth asking Melanie to help calm the baby down is what upset her. Beth always goes to Shawn when the baby is wild and won't calm down.She's been quiet since we sat at our table in the diner. She didn't even order a meal for herself. I take her hand and stand from our table. "Will you guide me to the bathroom, please," I ask softly and feel as she stands a moment later.Moments later we enter the bathroom and I step in front of her, feeling her facial expression. Her cheeks and eyes were wet from recent tears and I go in her arms. "I know what else is bothering you," I say in a soothing whisper and rub her back in comfort. "Beth asked for Melanie to help calm the baby down