,,Do you want to go out with me?"
I knew for a while now, that Austin would ask me that.
For the month I started at this school, I could see that he would ask me eventually.
And I did my best to avoid this situation all this time.
Actually for as long as I can remember I ran away from this question and to face this now, not knowing what it would lead to in the end, was scaring.
So before I took the jump, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and nodded.
"Yes ... let's try that."
Austin hugged me tight, not letting go of my hand and I could feel his bright grin against my shoulder.
"You finally said yes! Don't be scared, we can overcome every challenge life will give us. I'm so glad to be able to be together with you, I promise I won't hurt you, honey."
The nickname made me shiver a bit, but it wasn't all that bad.
"Your overreacting. I'm your boyfriend because I trust you and believe in you, but I will need some time to loose my loss anxiety. So please be patient with me. I will do my best to be there for you too."
It almost felt like Austin would burst with happines and I asked myself how it would be possible for his grin to still be growing.
"Honestly, it doesn't really feel real that this is happening. I promise that you won't regret it."
He tightened his grip around my hand a bit, as if to say, that he never want to let go.
Austins whole reaction of us getting together made me blush and my heart beat faster, eventhough I didn't want to admit it. Luckily his face was burried in my shoulder and he didn't looked me in the eye the entire time.
"Come on, calm down. People get together every day.", I tried to reassure him and not to get caught blushing.
Austin flinshed suddenly and put his hand on my chest.
,,Ash, your heart is beating so fast ..."
He lifted his head and looked at me wide-eyed, in surprise, only a few inches away from my lips. Not that I were any better.
Even the setting sun couldn't hide that my face was set on fire.
Austin tried to hide the fact that he was nervous, that his lips were shivering, when he carefully approached closer to me.
,,A-austin ..."
,,I-i know this is sudden, but ..."
He tried to stop himself, but something between us pulled him closer ... and to tell the truth, I felt it too.
Many would say, that it wasn't the right place or the right timing, but my heart told me clearly that this was the moment. It would happen, right here, right now.
Our faces were so close, that I could almost feel our lips touch, our breaths were mingling.
But when I started closing my eyes, Austin began to panic.
"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't do this ..."
I wasn't having any of this, I grabed his hair in the neck and pulled him in for the kiss I've waited for.
It was a gingerly, soft kiss as I was still scared to get rejected and to regret this move.
Carefully I began to move my lips against his, eyes closed.
Austin didn't responded, he didn't do anything.
Scared, that all my worries would still be proven right, I pulled away, ready to apollogize and to run away.
I opened my mouth, but Austin just smiled, grabed me by the collar and kissed me.
This one had much more passion and emotions shown and he didn't waited for me to put his tongue in my opened mouth.
During the kiss, he changed our positions by sitting up again, leading me with our hands still intertwined, finally letting go of my hand, letting his hand slide over my back till he settled them on my butt and lift me on his lap.
I almost wouldn't have realized what he was doing while through all this he wreaked havoc on poor little me.
Our kiss felt like something that was long overdo, as if it was the last call to finally do this. As if we didn't kiss right then, we would have never done.
Sitting on his lap, I ran my finger through his hair and kissed him back, now more demanding.
His hands didn't stand still either, one hand was massaging my butt, the other wandered under my shirt and I could tell he was thinking of taking my shirt off, because I could feel something pocking between his legs. Not that I were any better.
I guessed that both of us were at our emotional limit for the day, because he was thinking what I was thinking.
He pulled away, gasped for air and I was honestly impressed how he managed not to blush or showing any shame.
"Sorry, we - we should stop here.", Austin said.
"Don't apollogize all the time. We're boyfriends and I kissed you first."
"Yeah, but we just got together, you have to think about a lot and I initiated the kiss and ..."
I interrupted him with a peck on the lips.
"I said it's ok, or else I wouldn't have kissed you, boyfriend."
Now we both couldn't hide that we were ashamed anymore and looked the other way.
"Anyway, it's getting late and I still have to pack my stuff."
"Really? You have to go already? Thats a shame ..." Austin looked like a lost puppy which favourite toy was stolen.
A short moment I fought with myself to ask him to stay over or not to.
I'm way too into this situation to say no, huh? I should seriously work on controling my behaviour more. But I promised him and myself to try this and there won't be many chances to spent time like this, once I moved.
So, I cleared my throat, looked him in the eyes and asked him.
"Do you want to stay over?"
,,Make yourself at home.", I said and gestured to my room. ,,Thank you for the invitation." Austin stepped in and looked around my room as if it were the first time he saw it. ,,It's not the first time you stayed over, what's impressing you so much?" Austin set his school bag next to my desk and took a seat on my bed, but still looking around my room. Is it just me, or is he feeling strangely comfortable already after the second time here?
The weekend arrived sooner than we expectet. Maybe that was because Austin and I had to focus on a new thing for both of us. Our relationship. The last few days I watched every soccertraining after school on the sidelines, we kissed in the storageroom, texted through all our classes and he practically moved into my room. So we didn't even recognised that our time was up. ,,Allright, that was the last box, finally. Say your goodbyes, son, and we can get going!", my dad Jack announced, closing the trunk.
13 years agoI don´t have many memories of that day, because I was bearly 3 years old.This October day I was playing in our backyard, it was later in the evening but still pleasantly warm.Dad and I had built a tree house, which I liked very much, and played in there this day too.My attention were caught when there were noises and loud voices. The voices of my parents, they were fighting inside.Nothing new for me, but I think no kid appreciates it, if their parents are fighting. So I climbed down the ladder to dispute their argument.Shyly I peaked into our living room, were my Mom gesticulated wildly and shouting at my Dad. He, on the other hand, stucked his hand in his side and holding his head as if he had a bad headache.I stand there awkwardly, not confident enough to interrupt them, fidgeting with my fingers.After a while their fight was interrupted by the bell of the front door. My Dad broke away
Massachusetts is cold, totally different than Florida, so I tightened my jacket and scarf around me for the 100th time this morning.6 a.m. is way too early to wake up especially in my new cold home.I only lived here at my new families house for a month and today was my first day at my new school.Even the gloves aren´t helping anymore, my hands are freezing and breathing into my hands can only help so far.“The Honey Budgers, a dangerious street gang in Florida, involved in blackmail, murder and extortion, with around 10.000 members, had a fight with another gang, The Sk8ters. Weapons like knives and guns were involved, during this fight 100 people were killed, another 150 people were badly wounded. Not only gang members, but innocent people got hurt during the fight. Honey Budgers boss Keith Kingston were taken in by the police for questioning.“, the reporter on TV behind me in some shop said.When I saw the news behind m
When I wake up the next day, my head hurts, my stomach flips. I had to force myself to go downstairs for breakfast, great my parents and to calm Vanessa. “Ash, dear, you look pale. Are you not feeling well? Do you want to go to the doctors?“ “No, Mom, I´m fine. Still feeling a bit nervous because of the new environment.“ Out of respect to both of them, I call them Mom and Dad. It wasn´t always an easy task to calm Vanessa, because she worries a lot and cares for her family. But ultimately she was soothed and would let me go to school To get my mind off of things, I focused on studies. My classmates would ignore me like I was dead, I liked it that way to be honest. Still, another person would be more than alive. This person would be the Hottie from the soccer team. He would lean against my locker, when I got something from it and smirked at me. "Hi!", was all he said while I stared at h
Austin seemed to have caught himself again.On our way home, he was talkative again. He told me about his team, his friends, his family and his other hobbys.It was nice seeing him happy and smiling so brightly.Our whole day spent together were funny and the soccer guy is a good person.Eventhough I can't make friends, but Austin would be a good choice.My companion bumped into my site from time to time, that I almost believed he got dizzy."Are you ok? You're swaying.", I asked, trying to hide my worries."No, I'm good, thank you. Just thinking, I would like to hold your hand.""S-stop joking. We're not girlfriend and boyfriend." My blushing was definetly not hiden by turning away."Who says a couple has to be a boy and a girl. It's about love between two people, no matter who they are. Also, I don't have a problem with boys." He just looked at me, but I felt the shame showing on my face."Calm dow
"Hello?", he asked."Hey …". First I hesitated, but then I asked the redhair, ,,Did you just cry?"The other side of the phone stayed silent.For the first time my redhaired little friend stayed this silent and I got nervous."Gab ...""Don't worry Ash, nothing's wrong. ... You wanted to talk?"After hearing his sad try of an excuse and his voice cracking, I was really undecided between bawling my eyes out because Gab sounded horrible or being the cold asshole and pretend I hadn't noticed."Can we meet up in 10 Minutes? Do you know the playground near our school?" I didn't know if it was the right decision, but it was everything I could do in this situation.Finally he gave me a quiet ,,Ok." and I have to admit that I hurried to cancel the call and to get to this playground.Damn me and my weak heart.When I arrived, Gab already sat on one of the swings.Honestly I was a bit scared to a
“That day your parents, my son and daughter in law weren´t only murdered by The Honey Budgers … you were a witness of that day. And I´m afraid that the gang found out, that you were there and saw them.“What? That can´t be true. This is just too surreal.Grandma Nona wouldn´t just be telling me out of nowhere that the murders of my parents are now after me."Nona ..." Words failed me."Listen, my sweetiest, you have to be careful. I researched the case of your parents for years now, I thoroughly collected all evidence about this case to be able to protect you, when they searched for you. ... A few weeks ago, when I wasn´t at home, it was broken into my home. They didn steal anything, but they were interested in my notes of the case. They took some of them and also a picture of you when you were younger. Please, be careful. I will talk about this with the police how we can protect you.""You got robbe