8. My Crush

"And here I thought you wanted to talk about how you called me your crush.", I faked ignorance.

Hot soccerguy choked on his own salvia.

"Uhm ... that was ... abou that ... I'm sorry." He  stuttered so bad, he didn't know what he was saying.

"Don't worry, Austin, I just wanted to tease you a bit." I tried to reassure him.

"So, I can call you my crush?" With saying that, he seemed more confident.

"It's your choice who you fall for. What do I have to say how you feel about other people?"

His smile in that moment could compete with a hot summerday.

"I really love you, Ash!" He looked like a child who got his favourite candy.

While I didn't respond and just turned my head to hide my blush. Eventhough I was sure he saw it. Because he put his hand on my shoulder, turned me to face him and looked dead serious.

"You're blushing again. And I still don't know how your feeling about me."

I felt like getting dragged into a corner, so I tried to get out of his grip.

Austin wasn't having it and locked our eyes with each other into a look that took my breath away.

His green eyes cast a spell over me, they were as pretty as on the first day I saw them and reminded me why I fell in love with him.

I didn't even had time to think about, that I just thought that I love him.

Slowly he wandered his hand from my shoulder to my cheek while he watched me attentivly.

Hot soccerguy started to carry my cheek, slowly approached me and almost asked with his glance if he could ...

"Can I ..." His look couldn't get seperated from my lips, but you could clearly see how nervous he was. ,, ... kiss you?"

"Huh?"

Honestly, I didn't get what happend. Around us, or between us.

All I remember were his nose, which almost touched mine and his lips lingering before mine.

He almost couldn't wait till I could give the slightest little nod. Which I think he wouldn't have caught, if we weren't head to head and my hair hadn't brushed his forehead.

Our kiss was sweet.

Sweet and slow, like he was being patient with me.

But exactly this innocense made my heart flutter and send my stomach off with butterflies.

Why didn't I do this way before?

This thought brought me back to harsh reality.

,,Sorry ... I can't. ... I'm moving to the new family next month, which is a week away. What are we doing here?" I panicked and put some distance between us.

He took my hand with which I pushed him away and pulled me a bit closer again.

"Why are you so afraid when you move away? That doesn't mean we have to seperate. Many people have long distance relationships and it's not like you move to another country. We can visit each other."

"Austin! Everyone in my life told me ,,we would stay in contact", ,,we would see each other". Never stayed that promise, I would always be forgotten in a couple of weeks. Which is why I don't have crushes, for years I was able to exclude crushes and love. And suddenly you smashed that baseball into my head and now we ended up here. I don't even know how you got me this far?"

Hot soccerguy held up for a second.

"Wait, are you telling me, you fell for me at first sight? ... I DIDN'T KNOW THAT!!", he screamed enthusiasticly.

"Austin! Is this really important right now?"

"Sorry. But also, yes, it's important to ME!" He put his hands on my waist to pull me even closer and give me a little hug like that.

"Ash, I want you to know, that I won't forget you after a few weeks, months or years. I will always love you. Do you think you were the only one falling in love in that moment I hit you with the ball? I was shocked when I thought you weren't feeling anything for me at all."

Unbelievable how vunerable and sexy he looked at the same time.

Look how bright his eyes are shinning with hope, how a single tear search it's way across his beautiful face. How could I ...

" ... not fall for that?"

Austin lifted his head, looked at me questioning, but before he could say anything I grabbed his face and give him a light kiss on the cheek. Ashamed and blushing he held his cheek and touched the kiss.

"What are you, a kid? We already kissed on the lips, what's with the kiss on the cheek?" He was burning in a glurious ball of red blushing.

"Do you know that you're tormenting me here right now?"

A bit of shy playing with his fingers before he looked me in the eyes again.

"I should go now, before it gets too late."

"Is the bus still running?", I asked.

Because, honestly, we both forgot the time, so the sun was already setting.

"Yeah, I still get the bus, don't worry."

I clearly heard the pause in his speech, so I made a quick G****e search and found out, that he missed the last bus.

"The last bus just left. Were you planing on walking home? Thats pretty far from here."

"It's just half an hour away, thats not too far."

"It's already getting dark and you have to go through some dangerous streets."

Ash, you're crazy, why are you doing this to yourself? You know what he feels about you, he already kissed you. You turned him down and now you ...

Austin began to rise an eyebrow in surprise.

Fuck it. It can't get any worse than this.

After our kiss, how was I supposed to act like nothing happened.

I'm only human, damn it! Of course I would be affected by the kiss of a hot guy I have a crush on.

,,Do you ... want to stay over at my place?"