,,Make yourself at home.", I said and gestured to my room.
,,Thank you for the invitation." Austin stepped in and looked around my room as if it were the first time he saw it.
,,It's not the first time you stayed over, what's impressing you so much?"
Austin set his school bag next to my desk and took a seat on my bed, but still looking around my room.
Is it just me, or is he feeling strangely comfortable already after the second time here?
,,It's not a normal sleepover, this is the first with my boyfriend, so of course it's different from last
time!", he announced during getting comfortable under a blanket.
,,No one that would see this would believe that you're the same person from the last sleepover."
,,Last time you were my crush and staying over had a stalking touch to it. At that time I never would have thought that we would feel the same way." Austin told me, truely happy and pleased with himself.
Meanwhile I settled myself next to him, with enough space between us so that our shoulders won't touch.
Great, that you're having a good time, but now I'm starting to feel nervous! So please, at least pretend to be a little uncomfortable for my sake.
,,Yeah, we have a crazy lovestory, allright?!", I replied, playing with my hands.
Austin watched me, than looked away and stared at the ceiling.
,,And now it's crazy to think that you would be gone soon. I hope we can still Skype and text regularry, but ... I'll miss you."
After he said that, I could sense the tears coming up, thats why I also stared at the ceiling.
An arm embraced me and pulled me closer into a warm hug.
,,Sorry, I didn't wanted to make you cry! It's ok, don't worry, we stay in contact and I will visit you as often as I can."
,,Thats not it!", I cried and hiccuped.
It's not that! ... Just, why is he so caring and always worried about me. Why? I don't deserve any of your kindness!
,,Why ... why do you have to be like this?", I repeated sniffing.
Why did I have to meet you now? Now, when I'm about to leave again? Why did I have to meet you ever? Why did I have to fall in love in love with you and leave you here behind?
Austin stroked my hair soothingly with one hand and cared my back with his other hand and pulled me closer this way.
,,Honey, I'm so sorry! I didn't meant to make you cry! Tell me what I said, and I promise I won't do it again!"
Somehow it's cute that he's so obviously overwhelmed by me crying and not knowing what to do now.
,,You maybe don't know this, but one of the reasons I fell in love with you ... was because you were the first person in a while, maybe ever, that was genuinely worried about me and cared about me. And don't tell me it's not a big deal. I should be the first person to know that thats not true!"
Allthough Austin didn't responded to my speech, his tighening grip around me and his calming heartbeat, and a bit of gut feeling, showed me that he listened and understood.
,,You know why I fell in love with you? Because you were pretty and cute of course, but also more impotantly, because you looked so lost and in need of caring and protection. That something inside me told me, that I have to and could care for you. And when you explained to me why you acted like you did, I just thought, that I genuinely understood you. Like I finally understood what it means to know a person. So all this time my heart left me no other choice than to fall in love with you." Austin rested his chin on my head and looked over my head during his little love confession.
,,Thats so cheesy. We are already together, you don't have to charm and flirt with me anymore."
,,What do you mean? Especially because your my boyfriend I'm going to charm and flirt the crap out of you. ... Also I think the orphanage didn't teach you how to value yourself and how normal and good relationships look like. So maybe it's not all that bad that you got a family and are going to reunit with your biological family."
Playfully I intertwined our legs with each other.
This situation felt so casual and relaxing, like a big weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Maybe he's right and being in a relationship wasn't all that bad. I could get used to this.
With each passing moment I was tempted to forget about every and all worries.
,,Thanks ..."
When I looked up into his face, he was sound asleep.
Are you serious?
This was kind of an odd situation, at the first night together with my boyfriend, open my heart to him and he falls asleep after admiting my recognition for him.
But seeing his sleeping face, feeling his steady heartbeat and his little snores, which were quite good to hear, or else I would be worried he would just sleep in forever, by how peacefull he slept.
And to tell you something, it absolutly wasn't a bad feeling at all to sleep in his arms.
Well, it was a bit awkward and unfamiliar, but the feeling of safety was something that nobody could ever rip apart from me again.
A few hours ago I was totally against the idea. It's crazy to think that he was able to flip my head upside down in such a short amount of time. Either I'm really into him or I'm just dumb.
If I would regret it, only time will tell.
But he has earned my trust and I took the jump, to fly or fall.
Getting sleepy now I took one last look around my room, where I started to pack my stuff for the move.
If theres one setback to our relationship now, that would be ...
The weekend arrived sooner than we expectet. Maybe that was because Austin and I had to focus on a new thing for both of us. Our relationship. The last few days I watched every soccertraining after school on the sidelines, we kissed in the storageroom, texted through all our classes and he practically moved into my room. So we didn't even recognised that our time was up. ,,Allright, that was the last box, finally. Say your goodbyes, son, and we can get going!", my dad Jack announced, closing the trunk.
13 years agoI don´t have many memories of that day, because I was bearly 3 years old.This October day I was playing in our backyard, it was later in the evening but still pleasantly warm.Dad and I had built a tree house, which I liked very much, and played in there this day too.My attention were caught when there were noises and loud voices. The voices of my parents, they were fighting inside.Nothing new for me, but I think no kid appreciates it, if their parents are fighting. So I climbed down the ladder to dispute their argument.Shyly I peaked into our living room, were my Mom gesticulated wildly and shouting at my Dad. He, on the other hand, stucked his hand in his side and holding his head as if he had a bad headache.I stand there awkwardly, not confident enough to interrupt them, fidgeting with my fingers.After a while their fight was interrupted by the bell of the front door. My Dad broke away
Massachusetts is cold, totally different than Florida, so I tightened my jacket and scarf around me for the 100th time this morning.6 a.m. is way too early to wake up especially in my new cold home.I only lived here at my new families house for a month and today was my first day at my new school.Even the gloves aren´t helping anymore, my hands are freezing and breathing into my hands can only help so far.“The Honey Budgers, a dangerious street gang in Florida, involved in blackmail, murder and extortion, with around 10.000 members, had a fight with another gang, The Sk8ters. Weapons like knives and guns were involved, during this fight 100 people were killed, another 150 people were badly wounded. Not only gang members, but innocent people got hurt during the fight. Honey Budgers boss Keith Kingston were taken in by the police for questioning.“, the reporter on TV behind me in some shop said.When I saw the news behind m
When I wake up the next day, my head hurts, my stomach flips. I had to force myself to go downstairs for breakfast, great my parents and to calm Vanessa. “Ash, dear, you look pale. Are you not feeling well? Do you want to go to the doctors?“ “No, Mom, I´m fine. Still feeling a bit nervous because of the new environment.“ Out of respect to both of them, I call them Mom and Dad. It wasn´t always an easy task to calm Vanessa, because she worries a lot and cares for her family. But ultimately she was soothed and would let me go to school To get my mind off of things, I focused on studies. My classmates would ignore me like I was dead, I liked it that way to be honest. Still, another person would be more than alive. This person would be the Hottie from the soccer team. He would lean against my locker, when I got something from it and smirked at me. "Hi!", was all he said while I stared at h
Austin seemed to have caught himself again.On our way home, he was talkative again. He told me about his team, his friends, his family and his other hobbys.It was nice seeing him happy and smiling so brightly.Our whole day spent together were funny and the soccer guy is a good person.Eventhough I can't make friends, but Austin would be a good choice.My companion bumped into my site from time to time, that I almost believed he got dizzy."Are you ok? You're swaying.", I asked, trying to hide my worries."No, I'm good, thank you. Just thinking, I would like to hold your hand.""S-stop joking. We're not girlfriend and boyfriend." My blushing was definetly not hiden by turning away."Who says a couple has to be a boy and a girl. It's about love between two people, no matter who they are. Also, I don't have a problem with boys." He just looked at me, but I felt the shame showing on my face."Calm dow
"Hello?", he asked."Hey …". First I hesitated, but then I asked the redhair, ,,Did you just cry?"The other side of the phone stayed silent.For the first time my redhaired little friend stayed this silent and I got nervous."Gab ...""Don't worry Ash, nothing's wrong. ... You wanted to talk?"After hearing his sad try of an excuse and his voice cracking, I was really undecided between bawling my eyes out because Gab sounded horrible or being the cold asshole and pretend I hadn't noticed."Can we meet up in 10 Minutes? Do you know the playground near our school?" I didn't know if it was the right decision, but it was everything I could do in this situation.Finally he gave me a quiet ,,Ok." and I have to admit that I hurried to cancel the call and to get to this playground.Damn me and my weak heart.When I arrived, Gab already sat on one of the swings.Honestly I was a bit scared to a
“That day your parents, my son and daughter in law weren´t only murdered by The Honey Budgers … you were a witness of that day. And I´m afraid that the gang found out, that you were there and saw them.“What? That can´t be true. This is just too surreal.Grandma Nona wouldn´t just be telling me out of nowhere that the murders of my parents are now after me."Nona ..." Words failed me."Listen, my sweetiest, you have to be careful. I researched the case of your parents for years now, I thoroughly collected all evidence about this case to be able to protect you, when they searched for you. ... A few weeks ago, when I wasn´t at home, it was broken into my home. They didn steal anything, but they were interested in my notes of the case. They took some of them and also a picture of you when you were younger. Please, be careful. I will talk about this with the police how we can protect you.""You got robbe
The last few days were an emotional rollercoaster. First there was this call from my Nona, the fear of the murders coming after me and now the realisation that I had a crush on the hot soccerguy. To be honest, I didn't expect that I would have already been falling so hard for him. Of course he's good-looking and always being nice, but thats not enough reason to fall for someone, is it? ,,Whatever happend between you two, I think you should make up. He seems to be important to you." Vanessa proposed. ,,And don't worry about a home, you're always welcome at our home.", Jack was being nice. It was nice, that I would get a new family with 16 years of age. But would it all end like in a fairy tale? I'm quite pessimistic! ... Well, old habits won't die. Because, honestly all my past adoptive parents were nice and the first few times I was quite optimistic and believed in a future. Thats why it was that words had such an big i