CHAPTER 65—Same feeling to the same person

ROME

As soon as I closed the door of the room in my office, I punched the wall as hard as I could endure. I heard the tiny bones on my fist creak. Wala na akong pakialam kung mabalian man ako ng buto at duguan ang kamay ko, basta’t mailabas ko lang ang galit ko.

I fvcking hate myself! I hate this feeling! Hindi ito ang gusto kong mangyari!

D*mn! I am starting to feel soft with Faye at hindi pwedeng manumbalik na lang bigla ang affection ko sa kanya.

I am already proud, pero t*ngina talaga! Nag-iba bigla ang tingin ko sa kanya kapag nakikita ko siya. Ibang-iba sa inaasahan ko. I only know she is just my toy and my leisure heat.

But the way she acted when she was jealous, the way she ignored me, damn, the way she cried, it has a huge impact on me! Naramdaman ko lang ang ganitong konsensya at awa ngayong araw na ‘to. Hindi naman ako ganito sa kanya ah?

This can’t be! Masisira ang plano ko. I hate her. Hindi ko na siya mahal at wala na akong pakialam.

But whenever I convinced mysel