Chapter 1

I don't need a man.

That was one of my principles for my whole twenty five years of existence. Iyon na ang siyang nakatatak sa isipan ko mag mula nang mamulat sa mundo.

I can live without a man, without a husband. I can provide for myself, for my own needs. I can do everything that I want all by myself.

Hindi ko alam kung hindi ko ba nakikita ang sarili ko na may lalaking kasama, o talagang hindi lang ako attracted sa mga lalaki. I was surrounded with the boys, my cousins to be specific, ngunit kailanman ay hindi ako nagkaroon ng ibang malapit sa aking lalaki, maliban sa kanila.

Sa tingin ko ay kabisado ko na ang bawat liko ng bituka ng mga iyon. No offense, but I believe that I have a right to not trust men, especially when it's all about Objectifying and Disrespecting women-the reason why I don't like being surrounded by them.

Some were wondering how I survived being away from them. Lalo na't kapag usapang relasyon. Hindi ko raw ba kailangan ng init. I just laughed when I heard that question from someone.

Just like what I've said, I can provide my own needs, even the sexual and carnal desires of mine. Maraming paraan dyan, you can use sex toy, or just simply pleasure yourself using your hands. It's just normal. It's normal to feel lust, it's normal to release an orgasm. Ang mali ay kung papaano mo maalis ang nararamdaman mo, sa mabuti, o sa masama. Being open minded and talking about it was never been a taboo. Nothing's wrong with it. As long as you're doing it right.

Know your limit, that's the only answer. Having sex is good, but having a safe sex was better.

Just like what I am doing now. Pleasuring myself is like a pride for me. I can do it all by myself, I don't need a man to satisfy my needs.

"Shit..." I moaned as I grazed my fingertips over my dripping wet bud down there.

I am currently sitting over my office table here inside our Mansion. Each of my cousins have their own, that's why I am confident that no one would see me doing these things to myself.

Well, this is just normal. A woman pleasuring herself. A man, pleasuring himself, right? This is my body. I can do whatever I want.

Being sexually open doesn't mean that you're already a slut. We should stop slut shaming women who are talking about sex performance, dick sizes, sex positions, sex life and other things that are related to sex, just because you find it unnecessary. Kaya talaga dapat ay may Sex Education dito sa Pilipinas noon pa e. Hindi nga lang applicable sa karamihan dahil iba ang mindset.

If someone would see me here, I bet he or she would be grimacing now. Looking at my flushed face? Uh-huh, I bet they'll make fun of me, if ever.

"Ahh..." I moaned sensually, feeling the building up sensation inside me, begging for my release.

As soon as I cum, my lips parted in pleasure while my mind was in dazed because of what I did. Gosh, that was.. awesome.

The moment I opened my eyes, it immediately grew bigger in horror. A man, leaning against the wall, crossing his arms while his other hand is playing with his lower lip along with his fingers, obviously watching me how I fingerfucked myself.

"Want me to help you get off, baby?" he whispered in a sensual tone with a smug smirk plastered on his lips.

"W-what the..." I uttered in disbelief.

Tangina, kailan pa 'to rito?!

I tried to compose myself. Instead of panicking, I inhaled a deep breath before I closed my parted legs. I jumped a bit to get off from the table, bending down to pick up my black lacy panty on the floor.

"No thanks," I answered to his question.

I am not that bothered with the fact that someone saw me in that state. Swerte niya, nakanood pa ng live porn. I even wore my panty in front of him. Narinig ko ang pag sipol niya.

"Damn, that was hot. You have a nice ass, by the way..."

Nalaglag ang panga ko, pero ang gulat sa ekspresyon ko'y hindi na ako nag abala pa na ipahalata sa kanya. Instead, I grabbed my pants that was hanged on my swivel chair.

Isinuot kong muli iyon kahit na nasa harapan ko siya. He didn't even bother to change his position. Most importantly, he didn't even get out of my sight after I caught him watching me!

Kung hindi siya aalis, ako ang aalis. God, how come I didn't notice that he was inside my office earlier? And who is he by the way? Hindi ako natataranta, dahil sigurado akong kilala 'to ng buong pamilya ko.

No one can defeat a Flint. Walang pwedeng makalusot, walang pwedeng makatakas. In short, no one will win against us.

Dire-diretso ako nang lampasan siya at iwanang mag isa doon sa loob ng opisina ko. I walked towards my room on the third floor, fixing myself up. I can still feel my wetness skimming through my panties.

"Xiania, important meeting at the Commander's office."

My brow furrowed as I blowed dry my hair after I listened to the voicemail that one of my cousins sent.

Important meeting tapos sa office lamang ng Commander dito sa bahay? It was supposedly held inside the Headquarters of our Organization.

After wearing decent clothes and putting on some colored things that made my face lightened, I swiftly stormed out of my room. I made my way towards the Commander's office, which is my Uncle. My father's cousin.

"She's here." Harriet, my cousin, declared after I entered the Office.

I roamed my eyes around. They are complete, well except for some of my uncles and aunts, of course. I just got curious why my Mom and Dad were included in this meeting, well in fact, this is just all about the Organization. Hindi naman sila kasali roon.

"Greetings, Commander." I slightly bowed down my head.

My eyes narrowed on the Man beside my cousins. The one who watched live porn a while ago. He has this mocking smile on his lips, making me feel annoyed a little.

"This is not about the Organization, Xiania. Your parents want to talk to you about something," Commander announced.

I raised my brow, waiting for their answers. Mom was the first one who spoke.

"Xiania, as you can see... I just want what's the best for you," she began.

Oh, I think I already know where this is coming.

"You're already in your legal and right age, aren't you going to marry or date someone?"

I almost roll my eyes but I chose not to. My parents are both manipulative, just like me. Pinili talaga nilang kausapin ako rito sa harap ng kumander, para hindi ako makapalag at makatanggi sa sasabihin nila.

"This is Vraxx Caldwell, he's from our Organization too-"

"Who is he, then?" I asked, piercing my eyes to the Commander.

The Commander's lips tugged up. "Don't cut me off young lady. I can kill you in just a flick of my finger-"

"Harry..." My Father's calm bat sharp voice made me shiver.

"I was just kidding, Xavier. Masyado mo namang sineseryoso. Ikaw na nga ang ginagawan ko ng paraan," Tito Harry, the commander uttered.

"So what is this meeting all about?" I asked, still stopping myself from exploding with a building up of anger inside me.

"You'll be in a fixed marriage, girl," Harriet moked me.

"Harriet, stop it. Pipikunin mo lang si Xiania."

Oh thanks to you, Kenzie.

He is also my cousin, dalawa sila ni Harriet na mag kapatid, they are the Commander's daughter. Ang Commander ang pinsan ng Daddy ko, apat silang mag pipinsan. Xavier Flint is my Dad, Xylla Flint is my Mother. Wince and Aisha Flint are Wright's parents. Jexer and Daphne Flint are Diveghn's parents, while Harry Flint is the Commander. His wife, Kerzten Flint is actually the owner of our Organization. 

"Don't worry cuz, he's our best friend," Wright interrupted.

I still remain my lifted brow, surveying the man beside them. He is wearing a formal business attire.

"Greetings from Caldwell's, Miss Xiania Flint-"

"You're going to be my husband, aren't you?" My eyes squinted.

The side of his lips rose up. "Uh-huh, you're going to be my wife as well-"

"How sure are you?" I chuckled wryly.

Vraxx smiles teasingly. "A Caldwell doesn't take 'no' as an answer-"

"I am a Flint-"

"Even from a Flint-"

My eyes widened. "How dare you say that?!"

Well... I was offended by that!

"Stop that, you two! Hindi pa kayo kasal niyan ah?" ani Diveghn, natatawang sinasaway kami.

I groaned. "What is this Mom? Dad?" I dragged my eyes at them, anticipating their answers.

Dad was the one who explained. "Your Mom and I just thought that this would be the best for you-"

I ridiculously laugh. "Alin po? Ang ipakasal ako? I thought Mom was against it? Hindi ba't lumayas ka po noon-"

"Xiania!" they all shouted in chorus, stopping me from arguing with my Parents.

I gritted my teeth, looking straight in front of that freaking Vraxx Caldwell. "I don't want to marry him. I don't want to get married. I don't want to date anyone. I don't fucking want!"

"W-well, maybe you can try, Anak?" Mom hesitatingly tried.

I exhaled a loud breath. "Mom, ayaw ko nga po..."

"Bakit, kung ganoon?" Kenzie asked.

I looked at him. "I couldn't see myself having a family. I don't need it..."

"Then, what about us?" Harriet asked, ridiculed.

I grunted. "Of course that was already given! What I mean is... ayaw ko ng asawa!"

"Okay, ganito na lang... Let's settle with the Engagement first, tsaka na lang ang kasal."

Halos matawa ako sa suggestion ng Mommy ko. Is this kind of a joke? A prank? Ano sa tingin nila ang marriage? Bahay bahayan at nanay tatay na laru-laruan lang?

They're now adults! Bakit hindi nila iyon mas maintindihan? I already said my side. I don't need anyone.

"Fine. I don't have any other solution in my mind now. I honestly don't want to do this, but you pushed me on my limit Lady Nia..."

A loud and fast pounding of my heart inside my chest made me feel uneasy because of the Commander's voice.

"This is my only card that I will use against you. I am sorry but I don't understand your reasons..."

I gulped, nervous because of the Commander's sudden change of tone. He screwed up his eyes on mine, arching up his brow.

"You choose... You'll marry Vraxx Caldwell or... I will kick you out of my Organization?"

What?! No!

I did my best, my hardest just to be accepted to the Organization! Tapos ngayon ay maibabasura ang lahat ng 'yon dahil lamang hindi ako papayag na maitali sa lalaking ito?

No. I won't let this happen. No one can ever ruin my plans, my life to be exact.

Who the hell is this man?! Bakit ako itatali sa kanya?!

Fuck. I don't know what to do.

Bahala na.

I tightly closed my eyes as well as my fist, trying to calm myself down. As soon as I opened my eyes, it welcomed Vraxx Caldwell's teasing gaze.

Oh no, please tell me that my decision is right.

I took a deep breath, before I answered. "Fine, I will marry you, Mr. Caldwell."