5.|| Obsessed with her already?

Nikolai’s POV

“What do you think about this?” Jenna asked as she tried on yet another red colored lingerie. I knew what she was trying to do and what she was getting at but I wasn’t interested.

Lilliana’s rejection earlier today was all I could think about and I had no idea why but the more I tried to push the thought away, the harder it became.

What does she mean when she said she’d rather die than be my breeder?

Anger surged through my veins as I clenched my fist and tugged on the side of the bed. Does she not know who I am? Does she not know how I can affect her life?

Jenna was saying something as she tried on another pair of panties to try and impress me but nothing she did got a reaction out of me, nothing she did got me excited like it used to and my dick didn’t budge.

Who does she think she is?

The thought of Lilliana crowded my mind again and I could feel my dick kicking. It was almost like I shouldn’t be thinking about her or I’d have my bulging cock to deal with but I couldn’t stop.

I didn’t understand how I was feeling, I couldn’t decipher the strong pull that kept leading me to her despite the fact that I’d rejected her. I had no idea why I even wanted her as my breeder.

I knew she was my mate when I saw her in my father’s chambers the day I came but being seventeen at the time, she must’ve been totally oblivious to it until she turned eighteen and could feel it.

Why did I reject her?

Groaning, I collapsed on the bed as I tried to press my fully awakened dick down but it kept protruding that Jenna eventually noticed it and sprinted to my side.

“Look who is calling out to me.” Jenna grinned before licking my ear and kissing me until she was almost running out of breath.

Her cold hands trailed a path from my chest down but I stopped her before she got to my trousers. Whatever she thinks she was doing wasn’t working and the reason my body is reacting this way isn’t because of her and her stupid lingeries.

“Why don’t you try some more and I’ll pick the one I like?” I asked with a wink that sent her out of the bed and back to the closet. Reluctantly, I sat up to watch her again and that felt like all I needed to do for my dick to calm down.

My mind drifted off to Lilliana and I tried my best to not think of her in a sexual manner. She’s a maid and that’s all she’ll ever be but why can’t I seem to let go of her when that’s probably the solution to my current problem?

Why do I want her as my breeder?

Lots of questions ran through my head and I’d even gone as far as went through her file and gotten all the information that I could possibly need about her.

She was supposed to be released days ago because that was the deal she made with my father when she came to seek refuge in our pack when she was ten but my father is dead now and I was supposed to let her go but that seemed like the most difficult thing to do.

I’m also aware of how she was being treated back at her pack because of her rank. I’d asked André to help me get information about her and the more I thought about her, the more curious I became.

“You like this one?” Jenna’s voice jolted me out of my thoughts and I lifted my gaze to see her. Her entire body was exposed and despite wearing panties, I could still see her neatly shaved pussy.

My eyes lingered on her body up to her face and for a moment I could swear that I saw Lilliana standing in front of me. Closing my eyes, I was disappointed when I opened it and Jenna was standing in front of me.

It felt as though all of my hopes had been shattered and I rolled my eyes without saying anything. She took that to mean I didn’t like it and pulled it off to try on something else.

The truth is, I loved it but definitely not on her body, “you know, I didn’t travel all this way just for you to keep ignoring me.” She said, her frustration obvious in her voice as she spoke.

Narrowing my eyes at her, now that I think about it, all the sparks that usually flew whenever we were together were now nowhere to be found. Jenna isn’t really my kind of woman but she sucks my dick really well hence the reason she’s my girlfriend.

To me, she had always been nothing but a pretty brunette with the perfect lips to make my cock happy. She has a low IQ and annoying clingy behaviors.

In my head, all there was to her is her good look and status as the betas daughter, a potential trophy partner, but putting all of that aside, she’s nothing but a complete airhead.

Maybe I once loved her, or so I thought, but now she was starting to annoy me. Her presence was irritating and seeing her naked in front of me was like looking at my mother naked.

It was disgusting.

“What the hell is wrong with you, Nick?!” Jenna yelled and I shifted my gaze back at her. I was already lost in thoughts and she was tired from trying to seduce me.

An act that’s obviously not working.

“What are you thinking about?” She added, throwing her stuff back into the box she’d brought to my room in anger before walking towards me.

I would give anything to be away from her right now but before I could stand up she was already sitting beside me with her arms around me and her naked body pressed up against me.

“What’s going on, baby?” She continued as she smooched my face with wet kisses, “you didn’t make a choice and you were completely lost in thought.” She added.

She’s not a complete airhead after all, she noticed I wasn’t interested in her sexual charade. Smiling, I pulled her away from me but her cheeks were burning red from anger.

“Don’t worry about it.” I tried to assure her but my voice failed me, it didn’t sound very reassuring and maybe my face was also making it obvious that I was irritated rather than aroused.

“I have to worry about it, Nick!” She retorted, about to throw her usual tantrums, “I’ve been hearing a lot of things and my ears are full from the rumors.” She continued and my eyebrow raised.

“What rumors?” I enquired, my voice bridled with fake confusion.

“That you were speaking to that peasant maid, Lilliana, earlier today,” she continued, “what the fuck do you want with her? She has absolutely nothing to offer you.” She added, her jealousy obvious.

The sound of Lilliana’s name sent chills through my veins and my dick twitched. My Lycan growled in excitement and he wasn’t interested in listening to the fact that it wasn’t supposed to be exciting considering the fact that we rejected her already.

Does rejection mean nothing anymore?!

My heart skipped a beat and my chest pulled but I managed to burst out laughing without losing composure as I stared at a confused Jenna.

“You think I might want to have something to do with a maid?” I asked, my laughter had abruptly stopped and my tone was serious as I stood to my feet.

“No, I… I was just…” Jenna stuttered and I cupped her face in my palm, “I’m sorry.” She apologized, her gaze lowering. This was another thing that drew me to her, she’s submissive and easy to manipulate but Lilliana.

Lilliana seemed fierce and she had looked me dead in the eyes when I rejected her in front of everyone without breaking, she threw my offer back at my face without fear.

That is exciting.

“I was having her run a few errands, it’s nothing more than that.” I added but Jenna remained unconvinced, it was like she knew I was lying.

“I hope I’m going to remain the only woman in existence to ever gain Alpha Nikolai’s favor.” She said in a low tone before kissing me. Her fingers explored my bare skin and soon she was trying to undo my belt.

Her hard nipples pressed against me as she stopped fumbling with my belt to guide my fingers down to her pussy and from how wet it was down there I could tell that she was horny and couldn’t wait for me to fuck her.

I tried to finger fuck her but I couldn’t even do that without thinking of her as Lilliana. Unable to go on with the make out session, I pulled away as I ran my fingers through my hair and let out a frustrated groan.

“We already made out today, Jenna, I’m exhausted.” I lied and Jenna, knowing that, gasped in sheer anger and I could tell that she was offended.

I’ve never said no to fucking her before.

Quickly sweeping her anger under the rug, she came onto me again but I took both her hands and clasped them together before pushing her away from me gently, even though I was starting to get angry at her persistence.

“I can’t, Jenna,” I said, “I need to be left alone so just go and I’ll call you back when I need you.” I finished, the anger she’d swept under the rug came back.

Her chest heaved as her breathing paced, she locked eye contact with me for a while and when she saw how serious I was she stormed out of my room and I laid on my bed.

“Lilliana.” I muttered to myself as I rubbed my cock. I have to do something about her and also about my throbbing dick.