3 weeks later......Winter break is approaching and already the change in weather has made itself known. Today is one of those really cold days and staying at home seems best.Gosh, my home.I still haven't gotten used to it. Roman and I are actually living together. It's been quite a busy couple of weeks I must say. We've had a number of visitors, mainly my dad, my friends, Roman's family which obviously means his stepmom and Rosy, since him and his dad aren't really talking. Well Roman not talking to his dad that is.And when it comes to his friends, lets just say I've been doing a pretty good job at avoiding them. After what had happened at the hospital, everything is still as thick as when we had that little stand off. Everything has been a little calmer, now that I am not living at the Academy

His name is Jacob, the guy who had returned my book to me.He is simply a cool, down to earth guy that I like talking to. We had coffee once when I was done with therapy, I had popped by the nearest coffee shop whilst waiting for Roman and he simply showed up. He had been around and I invited him over, just because I felt like it and I didn't regret my decision.Conversation flowed easily and I found myself laughing, he gave me a reason to not even glance around me. Because he couldn't stay long and had to be elsewhere, he couldn't meet Roman. I am actually glad about that because it turned out, that Roman had been in a bad mood. I feel bad for half listening to him vent that day, since I was still in that calm and good mood I received, in my time spent talking to Jacob.I wanted Roman to meet Jacob and I think he will like him. Jacob plays the piano and is in the band. He likes to read, just like I do. He makes me laugh a

I woke up all sweaty and with my heart racing. I had a bad dream. It's the same one that seems to visit me right around this time of year. I wish it would leave me alone but it's more of a haunting memory turned bad dream. I tried to forget, I tried really hard but each time the day comes, my birthday comes, it feels like I am taken back to that dark place.The same where I was a prisoner in my own skin.I sigh, pushing back my hair away from my face. It's still in the early morning and checking my phone for the time, I see that I have an hour or so before my alarm goes off. Getting out of bed and needing something to keep my mind distracted, I get out of my room and head downstairs.My stomach starts to grumble in hunger and I remember that I didn't exactly eat, before going to bed. Might as well make myself something to eat. I decide on making myself a bowl

I have never laughed and smiled as much as I do, in a short space of time, like I've done being around Roman. It's only been hours and never a full day since he confessed his feelings to me. I've lost count of the many times in which he's stolen kisses. He can be quite sneaky when he wants to. Either way, I like it and I feel strongly about everything. Though hours in but like I had said, things feel natural and good.It was a good idea to skip school today because then I would have missed all this. And even if I went to school, I'd be bored out of my mind. So staying home was best. We had spent most of our day cuddling, eating, making out, binge watching on movies and just enjoying each others company.We had eventually fallen asleep on the couch, whilst watching a movie. Having woken up first after hours, I had found myself just watching him sleep. It truly was a pleasure, to see him so relaxed, so at peace and damn

A few minutes have passed and he hasn't said anything yet. His body has gone rock solid and I'm afraid, that he might not be breathing." R-Roman, please say something." I whisper out.I feel desperate for him to say something, anything." What happened?" I take a breath before confessing." It was my 11th birthday and my family decided to surprise me. They didn't want me depressing over you leaving anymore. They hosted the party at aunt Karen's house and the theme was a masked party. We were playing hide and seek when it happened." I trail off. " I thought the shed would be a good place for me to hide, but I was wrong. I stepped in there and I was only there for a short while, but it was enough for someone to grab me from behind. I had no idea that someone had been in there, I swear." I stop short when I hear him breathing hard." I struggled against