The next morning I awoke with a groan as Seth rolled over me to grab his phone and hit snooze on his alarm. I was already regretting telling him I would go to the skate park with him. I mean yes, I wanted to see him skate, mostly so I could make fun of him, but I also wanted to sleep. I loved sleep almost more than I loved him.Snuggling into Seth's chest I tried my best to go back to sleep but his phone was soon blaring again. "Ugh, why do we have to be there so early."Seth laughed kissing my forehead, "It's not even that early, it's 9:30."I looked up at him, "exactly, I don't like to get up until 11."Seth shook his head at me as he sat up, "come with me to take a shower. I'll wake you up."Snorting I shook my head as I pulled the covers over my head, "don't you ever think of anything else?"Seth crawled over me getting out of bed, once up he reached down jerking the covers off of me, "come on baby girl get up or we will be late."

I'm sure I looked ridiculous hiding under my covers like a child but in my bed, I could pretend that I had dreamed him up. I finally convinced myself to get up and put my pajamas back on. I had already twisted my hair up and was on my way to remove my makeup when I heard beating on my door. Not knocking but beating, like the fucking police were outside. I tiptoed in my hallway looking down the hall at my door, it seemed further away from normal like in those dreams where no matter how far you run it's still just as far away.My legs shook as I slowly made my way forward, I was scared to look through my peephole to

I had never responded to Seth's last email, I couldn't. I didn't know what to say. In all honesty, I was afraid I would break, so I just didn't email him back. It had been a week since we had talked. I knew from Brooke that he was still in town but as far as I was aware he hadn't been back to her place, of course neither had Dutch. He was now banned from her apartment until he learned to behave. Not that it stopped her from going to him.Friday had been a killer day, I had been called into a staff meeting only to be trapped at the office for eight hours as we went over the holiday design plans. Leaving the office I shook my head seeing it was already past 5 PM. I stopped by the grocery store to pick up a few things before heading home. Brooke had let me know she was going out with Dutch tonight when I had texted her inviting her over to eat. Selfishly I was kind of aggravated at her for not being mad at him anymore about the whole Seth situation. I had yet to speak to him sin

The words had shocked us both. I hadn't expected them to fall from my lips but now they were out I couldn't find it in me to retract them. If I was honest with myself at all I would admit it was true. I needed him to wrap me in his arms and tell me things would be ok. I needed him to fight for me. Hell, I needed him to restore my faith in him.He had told me he was on his way and the entire time I waited I was a nervous wreck. My stomach was in knots and my hands were shaking. I paced around in my living room as I waited, I felt like the rug should be threadbare from all the circles I had walked. In the end, it took him about thirty minutes before he knocked on my door. Even expecting him my heart stopped beating at the sound. It was as if the room suddenly had all of the air sucked out of it as I made my way to the door unlocking it with shaking hands.Opening the door slowly I took Seth in. He had changed and was in a pair of grey sweats and a simple white tee. Damn

It had been almost two months since I had seen Seth. When he had said that he had a crazy schedule he meant it. Fate seemed to be against us, the few days he had been in LA, I had been in New York for a meeting. Things had just not been working out for us.To his credit Seth had been silent in the media, the last gossip concerning him had been about the two of us and our on-again, off-again relationship. We spoke on the phone every night and would text several times throughout the day but it wasn't the same. Long-distance relationships sucked, especially when you didn't really know what kind of relationship you were in. We had said we would work on it, but did that mean we were together. I swear I felt like I was back one page one.It hadn't taken me long to find out who had sent me the flowers when Seth had been down. Phillip, one of my senior advisors had sent them, however, once word got out that I had been seen with Seth the flowers halted. I kind of felt sorry for h