Call me crazy but as I finished eating supper with my dad and little brother I couldn't stop thinking about a certain birdy on my i*******m.My dad made small talks and they talked about how their day was... but I wasn't really paying all my attention to them. I was wondering what Kathy looked like. I cursed under my breath a thousand times for not checking her up immediately after she accepted my follow.Why was I so du..."Honey... Precious!"Dad's voice snapped me out of my thoughts, "yes dad?"My little brother laughed and I sighed, "sorry dad.. There's a new teacher at school and a lot of things are about to change...""Is this teacher a man..."I laughed, "God nooo dad... no... a woman.. it's a 21 year old girl from the US..."He smiled, "okay good.. because for a second I thought h

I got in a taxi and went straight home. My head was all over the place and I knew one safest place I always feel good at.I cooked when I got home and then I had no fucken idea what to do... I wondered if I should text Kathy even though I wasn't okay. I mean I missed her.. Then I wondered if I should text my best friend.My phone notifications came on when I switched on my data..I went to my messages first since there was a text.. it was from an unknown number and it read:.....9863: Hey I got worried and I don't do that often. I hope you're okay. I really do. Layla🎉I saved her numbers and went to check my w******p messages.Bestie: Hey.. we will fetch you tomorrow at 5pm.. the movie starts at 7 but we wanna get good first. And I need you to help me get something during the day. I m

Chris and I walked to Burger King. He was smiling like an idiot and his dimples were showing. God this guy was so cute, why didn't I have feelings for him?He opened the door for me and we got inside. The coldness of the winter was really hitting us.. I turned to him, "so, what do you feel like having..."He smiled, "for real... you're actually taking me out and paying? I mean I can pay..."I shook my head, "I'm paying. So what do you want...?"He squinted his eyes cutely at the board and started reading, then he pointed, "umh.. that burger please..."I told the lady in front of me and said she should make it two..."Sitting or take always...?" The lady asked and I looked at Chris, "do you mind if we chill?"He shook his head and took the slip on my hand, "go check for a place upstairs..."

I couldn't believe what I did. After kissing Chris I immediately left without talking to him or listening to what he wanted to say.On the other side, her eyes... I could feel them on us, on me as I made my way out of the studio I felt so empty, weird and lost..I quickly got a taxi and went home. I felt sick.. physically and emotionally. I was tired...I had so many questions in my head. It was clear.. It was so clear that this was wrong... but how do I go about? Where do I start?I've seen people get hurt, I've seen them get killed, discriminated, be picked on... could I handle that? Could I handle the hate from people I valued, people I love, people who have been here from me from the start? The church? My best friend? My father? Everyone?I couldn't...As I imagined everyone turning away from me I couldn't... I couldn't do this. I couldn't follow my heart. I couldn't do

I quickly got home and started cleaning up the mess that was left by my little brother and so called best friend.I smiled a bit when I realized that she cooked. Great, minus one thing for me and more time with Kathy..My phone startee ringing and I answered, "dady...?"'I just got your brother a bus to go to Umtata... I'll be there a bit late waiting for it. You can just put my food in the microwave...' I smiled, I love my brother with all my heart, but a break from him is a blessinh, "thank you daddy but I'll stay up.. I have a few things to do and something to tell you. So I'll see you when you get back."'Is everything okay?' He sounded worried. Aww my poor old man."Daddy.. we will talk when you get here..."'okay I'll be there soon...' "Wait.. did you pack everything that he'll need?"