The following week went the same too, I was kinda getting used to the way things were now. Work my ass off during the week and then see Kathy on Friday till she leaves on Sunday.This past weekend the competition took a different turn. We had to pick a paper from a cap and the country that we picked was going to battle us and the one with the lowest score from the judges was sent home.It was frightening as fuck to know that it was anyone's game and we definitely needed to up ours so that we can stay.We picked Uruguay and somehow it wasn't as terrifying because the country was number 19 on last week's performance... So we knew we stand a great chance. We did a mix if hip hop with Sbujwa (South African dance style, check it on YouTube).Layla was getting ready for her solo around the corner. She looked a bit nervous. She'd close her eyes and nervously started wringing her hands.A hand touc

It was so hard to find sleep at night.. how homophobic he was, how racist he was, what an awful human he was... His words lingered in my mind.. the way he talked and the way his ice cold blue eyes looked... I generally find blue eyes sexy as fuck no matter how cold they look, I mean I could look at Katharina all I like and get lost in those blue eyes, but her brother's were different.. they gave me chills anid scared the living out if me..I sighed and tossed for the 100th time as I wondered what he'd do if I were to close my eyes for a second.. Would he rape me? Kill me or just throw me out? I had no idea, but my body was restless... so I was there laying in bed eyes open looking at the white ceiling as my mind took me to thee most darkest places I've ever been too.I had no idea what to do.. I was terrified of sleeping.I turned away from Kathy and took out my phone to text someone..ME:

Home....It felt so weird and a bit different, like I haven't been here in like forever and it only has been a month and a week.We all made our way out of the plane and went to find people who came to fetch us.."How does it feel to be back?" Denise asked and I turned around to look at Layla, she was talking on her phone. She's been avoiding me since last night. The last time I talked to her was when she left me for Kathy in that place at night..."It feels weird.. I mean a lot of shit happened and Germany is totally different from South Africa... so it's different.. but good. I missed my brother and my friend." I said approaching where we were going to show up to the people at O.R Tambo and finally say I'm home.."Ahh yesss.. and we won.. you know there'll be a lot of..." she didn't even get to finish her sentence as we heard a crowd cheering. We saw a bunch of people holding S.A Flags an

 "God pumpkin can you finish up?" Layla called out from outside the bedroom for the 100th time.. and I sighed, "can't a girl get ready in peace please.." "You're going to your home not some party in Sandton.." she complained and I laughed while applying lipstick on my mouth. "Relax... I'm done.." She walked in the bathroom and snuck her hands around my waist from behind then she looked at our reflection in the mirror, "you look beautiful.. as always.. you don't even need that thing on your lips.." I smiled and looked at her in the reflection, "oh really now? Wanna help me remove it?" She laughed and pulled away from me leaving me cold, "don't tempt me babe.. we will end up missing this Christmas dinner thing.. I'll have you as my dinner.." My body immediately grew hot thinking about what she was saying. God it turned me on so much. Just t

Saying goodbye to Meagan on the 27 left me feeling like shit. I ended up stuffing myself with wine and ice cream for two days (bought by my girlfriend) and cried to sleep. It felt like I was losing her like I lost Kathy. But she promised to keep in touch.. and might I add she was so fucken happy when Layla and I told the gang that we are together.. Everyone was happy saying "It's about time" like darn they been waiting for me to close the cirlce.After that though, work was on each side of my shoulder. Apparently the permanent staff decided to take leave and a few were left being helped by me and two other interns, which meant interns had double work now.. So I was at the office a lot or at events and what sucked more was that Layla was travelling a bit... which ended in us not spending lot of time together. But since she was dancing for Rouge's performances and I was covering some New year party with all those big artists.. it was by luck that I was actual