~2 Weeks Later~I took a swig from my third Mikes hard of the day as I typed the last few sentences of my newest book. I had always focused on children's books as well as illustrating but over the past year I finally decided to write an adult novel. The book itself was fiction and was about a young lesbian woman whose about eighteen. She ends up dying and sees what happens after death, a whole new life. It's a concept I had worked hard on and planned to eventually turn it into a series. As I finished the book as well as my drink all I could think about was telling Alice. Realizing that wasn't really an option at the moment I sighed and sent the document over to my editor before shutting down the computer. My vision was blurred slightly and I could feel my hands shaking even at the thought of her, at the thought of the woman I had fallen for. I shook my head clearing the memories from my mind and got an idea. I quickly looked in my closet for copies of my old books a

"I'm so glad you could make it Blair!" Sarah greeted me as the door swung openI smiled "Thank you for inviting me over."Her face fell slightly "It's Christmas Blair, I wasn't going to let you spend it alone."I walked inside before she gently shut the door and I turned to her "I was actually at my girlfriends so I wasn't really alone."She froze "Girlfriend?"I had wondered for a long time how Scott and Sarah would feel about me being gay. Scott seemed as homophobic as they come but with how Sarah had been with me since I moved out I really hoped she would be okay with it."Yes my girlfriend." I replied unable to move out of fear of what would come nextI hadn't even meant to say that, it just kind of slipped out but there was no going back now."Why didn't you bring her, I'd love to meet her." Sarah replied causing me to release the breath I'd be

~1 Week Ago~The room was spinning around me but even as I walked it didn't feel real. The lights seemed scattered throughout the air rather than strung along the ceiling like usual but I downed the last of my drink anyway. I dropped my cup mindlessly and shuffled through the crowd before stumbling up the stairs that seemed steeper than Mount Everest to me at the time."Hey there." A deep voice said as a figure approachedI looked up recognizing the icy blue eyes of Parker Daniels but my vision made it difficult to process him through the daze I was in."Parker," I slurred out happily pulling him into a hug "how have you been bud?"He chuckled lowly hugging me back a little tighter than I would have liked "I'm a lot better now."I forced myself out of his arms and looked up at him "Why is that?""You're here," he smirked, his eyes seeming to scan me up and down "and

~5 Days Later~We hadn't left Alice's house all week, at my request. I hated feeling this way, I hated the look on Alice's face when I rejected her touch, but I hated the panic attacks most. They had finally stopped two days ago but my anxiety was still at a record high. For years I tried to pass it off as something else, anything other than rape, but now I just felt like an idiot for not realizing sooner. I felt weak and empty, like the mugs I had shattered on the floor days ago. Alice had managed to keep me calm despite my state and I was grateful for her now more than ever. She was so patient with me and hadn't tried to touch me since the incident in the kitchen. There were times where she would accidentally and I would always jerk back defensively but it wasn't because of her. I could vaguely remember our conversation now and I mentally slapped myself for lining myself up for her to ask me that question. It was stupid of me to even bring up sex in the first plac

She took no time complying with my demand and I quickly climbed on top of her. She kissed me hard and I ran my hands down her body, stopping at her hips.I broke the kiss and smirked down at her "I missed seeing you like this."Before she could reply I bent down and started kissing her neck leaving a dark hickey just before the collar of her shirt and then made quick work of her clothes. She wasn't satisfied being the only one naked so she basically tore my dress off, not that I'm upset. I kissed down her body feeling her soft skin against my fingertips as I moved them to her tits. I squeezed them and then went to work on her nipples while kissing along her waistline receiving a desperate moan from her.She looked down at me, her eyes glazed over with lust "Please fuck me baby you're driving me crazy."I smirked and ran my hand down her body before licking her clit once receiving a soft moan. I moved down further an