Once again, I stilled and my chest feels like it has a ticking bomb inside, parang sasabog iyon. I don't know if he can feel it, pero sana hindi.  "Ghad, I miss my baby." He said huskily. Akala ko mahihimatay ako dahil sa pagwawala ng puso ko. How I long for his hug. Miss na miss kong marinig na tawagin niya ako ng 'baby'. A tear left my eye, dumami iyon nang marinig ang susunod niyang sinabi.  "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry baby. I'm sorry." He said it so sincere, I even think that he's crying. Hindi ko alan kung umiiyak nga ba siya talaga. But his voice is shaking.  Ayokong maging marupok. Ayokong maging mahina para sa kanya. Pero kahit na hindi ako sigurado kung para saan ang mga sorry niya, niyakap ko siya pabalik.  Ghad! Sobrang miss ko siya. I dreamed of this everyday. I missed his touch. I miss feeling the heat of his body. His smell, his voice, his beautiful face, everything about him.  Hindi ko na nap

  I was panting, and still catching my breath while he's kissing my neck again. Nairita ako sa buhok niya. I felt his sweat on his forehead. Tinulak ko siya para matignan ang mukha. Sumasagabal ang ilang hibla ng buhok. His hair is longer than before kaya ngayon ay sumasagabal na.  "Istorbo buhok mo." I said a bit irritated and push him away on top of me. He layed beside me and watch me reach for the drawer beside the bed and took out a rubber band.  Kahit nanginginig pa ang tuhod ko dahil sa ginawa niya ay umupo ako. Hindi pa nakuntento at pumatong sa kanya. Umupo sa lap niya. He sat, he knew what I am planning to do.  I ponytailed his hair, pawis na pawis kaming dalawa. He grab one rubber band from my hand and ponytail my hair too. Lumakas lalo ang kabog ng dibdib ko dahil sa ginagawa namin. Fuck! Kinikilig yata ako.  Nauna siyang matapos sa pag-ipit sa buhok ko. Hinahalik-halikan niya ako habang iniipit ko parin ang

  He held my arm, huminga ng malalim. And looked at me with tired eyes.  "I waited for you for hours and this is what I'll receive from you?" He asked, ang mukha niya ay pagod, mukhang hindi pa natulog at namumutla. His hair is so messy maging ang kanyang suot na damit.  "Tell me what's wrong why are you mad again?" He asked calmly.  Napalunok ako ng laway. Matapos ko siyang sigawan at ihagis sa mukha niya ang singsing kalmado parin siya?  "Don't act like you don't know why I'm acting like this." Malamig kong sabi. Inaagaw ko ang braso ko mula sa hawak niya pero hindi niya ako pinapakawalan.  "It's so easy for you to get mad at me." He said sadly. I saw pain in his eyes. Natahimik ako. Nakokonsensya.  "That ring... You're just gonna throw it like that?" Mas lalo kong nakita ang sakit sa mga mata niya.  "And it's so easy for you to say to me that you're going to marry my brother. Y

  Gumaan ang loob ko sa kanya. Nagawa ko pang ikwento ang storya namin ni Nicholas. But at the last part of our story I started crying. Tangina! Last part na talaga 'yun? That's the end? Naiyak ako lalo.  "Its hard, it's painful, and complicated. And wala kang kasiguraduhan sa feelings ni Nicholas sa'yo. But if you're destined for each other. Tadhana at panahon na ang gagawa ng paraan para maging kayo sa huli."  Lumunok ako ng laway at kinalma ang sarili ko. Sobrang focus ako sa pakikinig sa kanya. She gave me a warm smile.  "You have to be strong. We shouldn't give up on love."  "But I'm the only one who's in love." Inirapan niya ako at bumuntong hininga.  "I told you, you are not sure about the feelings of Nicholas. You didn't ask him what he feels for you. He didn't said he doesn't love you but he also didn't said what his real feelings for you."  "He left! Hindi ako mahal 'nun kung

  I'm wearing a terno hoodie and a skirt. I've been addicted to jackets and hoodies. And I can't wear fitted shirt or crop top. My belly is a bit bloated than usual. Lumaki ng kaunti kain kasi ako ng kain. Not that bloated, my abs disappeared but it still feels hard when you tap it.  Wala na akong ibang ginawa kundi kumain. Naiinip na ako sa condo walang magawa. Si Gina naman busy sa paghahanap ng trabaho. Me? I don't know if I'll work in our company. Two weeks palang akong graduate. I don't wanna work immediately. I want a vacation first.  "Did your attitude changed or you're really like that? Ngayon ko lang napansin dahil ngayon nalang tayo ulit naging close?" I heard my sister asked.  "Ewan." Tamad kong sabi at kumain nalang saka tumingin sa bintana. She has this weird stares at me.  "Did you had your period last month?" She suddenly asked.  "Not yet. Why do you ask?" Nagtataka kong tanong. Umiling lang