AMBROSE     I woke up the very next morning feeling rather exhausted both mentally and emotionally. This wasn’t because today’s Monday and everyone knows how much people hate Mondays but this was all because of the mental and emotional hangover that I’ve got from the weekend. I felt like I don’t want to get up from this bed. I felt like I just want to lay on bed all day. A lot of things have happened in the short period of time that I just need more time to adjust from everything. The repercussions are hitting harder than ever.   I stared above the ceiling and then into the window that I’ve just shattered with my fist last night. I slowly propelled myself up and sat at the edge of the bed still yawning widely like I’ve lacked some sleep. The chilly morning breeze coming in from the broken part of the window sent me some unwanted chills. It was just a brush of breeze but it was nippy that I had to carefully walk

AMBROSE  The ride back home was just as quick. I stepped on the gas as if I’m an extra in a racing film and I just covered the tracks with such a lightning speed. Just by the thought of my dad actually giving me information about the documents that contained my actual identity was more than enough to fill me up with this exhilarating excitement. I rushed back inside the house and before I know it, I was already inside my parents’ bedroom. The mood inside the room was expectedly strange and I immediately knew it was because of the fight that have occurred here a few days ago. The negative energy has stuck like it’s a perfume with an unpleasant odor. I noticed the picture frame of my mom and dad with the clear absence of the glass that once covered it. I believe this was one of the things that my mom threw in her anger. Even the big vintage flower vase that my dad bought from China was gone and I can see some few pie

AMBROSE  A part of me was already expecting this but finding my real mother seemed to be even more difficult under every circumstances. There’s only one thing to blame for it and that was all on fate. Fate was good at playing the ‘hide and seek’ card and I’m just one of its pitiful victim finding it hard to adjust and keep up with the harshness of the game. I went out to look for my real family for the whole day only to find nothing. I guess for a while I was satisfied that I did not raised my expectations so high that I might get burned by the conflagration. If I did raise my expectation to a cloud nine, there’s no denying the harsh reality that I’m going to fall six feet below the ground. The fall would hurt like shit. I’m beginning to ponder about what’s going to happen tomorrow. I have already made my decision to not enter school and I’m going to

AUGUST  “Ambrose? Are you leaving? Why the fuck are you putting your clothes on?” I yelled almost like an invisible person. It’s not an almost. Ambrose really disregarded my entire presence and it’s not cool anymore. It’s alarming how he was just blocking me off from actually interacting with him. I waited for this for the whole week and I still have to struggle. What the actual fuck. I became stricken with panic as I watched Ambrose continue to put his clothes on without turning his back to acknowledge my unwanted presence. For a short while, I thought of jumping down below and swim back to the riverbank or climbing down the boulder just to catch up to him. I felt stupid. I chose to climb down instead and I was already rushing towards Ambrose. I picked up my pace even though I’m feeling the hard surface of the rocks and pebbles on the soles of my feet. Slowing down wasn&rsquo

AUGUST It was just a three-word phrase but it was more than enough to reverberate throughout my head. I’m starting to feel giddy but I have to keep my cool. I don’t even think I felt this crazy when Rachel said the same exact phrase to me. That one was pretty obvious and that’s because I don’t really love her. I like her as a person, as a strong woman, as the way she was but I never really felt love in terms of romance for her. In spite all of that, Ambrose uttered the words with such burning emotion that I’ve never seen of him ever since I came here at Mary Heights. The words were loud and resonating that I instantly connected with it. My world was just losing control a few moments ago all because of him but the moment he spat that phrase, it transformed to a brighter one. A better world filled with rainbows and butterflies. It seems that the storm had passed by and I’m glad it did. Ambro