AUGUST  The pungent odor of garlic and onions being sautéed had the inevitable audacity to invade my nostrils and it did nothing but make feel famished than I already am. My stomach was churning like I haven’t eaten all day and I can only swallow my saliva for a bit of relief. I was preparing the chicken on the kitchen sink while Ambrose was standing in front of the stove waiting for the garlic and onions to be sautéed to perfection. I had this feeling that he was as hungry as I am. We have decided to cook something for dinner and I’m more than glad to do this with him. We both know that we are not good at cooking but there’s no one else here to do that other than ourselves. We had already cooked ramen stew together before but I never thought something like that would happen again. I’m still trying to let everything sink in. I was smiling while doing my job and I just had to control myself.

AUGUST Looking at Ambrose right now, I am definitely falling even deeper for him. I feel like the more I spend this kind of simple quality time with him, the more I’m being drawn closer and closer to him. That has never happened to me before. I have never been this drawn and attracted to someone. I did have a few crushes along the way but it never went to a point that I’m falling real deep. There’s definitely more parts of him that I have yet to discover and I’m all curious and intrigued to get to know him even better than I already know him. It’s like I’m sailing into an uncharted water with the lingering thought that there’s a lot of beautiful wonders just waiting to be uncovered. “I feel like I want to end things with Rachel right now.” I added making my voice even firm to let Ambrose know that I’m pretty much serious about this decision. It might be the alcohol

AMBROSE  I have never imagined the day that I would hang out like this with August ever again. The last time August was here felt so much like a century ago. At least that’s all because I’m too distracted this past week that thinking about him was totally lost in the equation. I was on the verge of believing that I’ll never survive this hell of a week but here I am pouring whiskey on my glass with August sitting at the far corner of the couch. Things just went fast in a matter of hours that I’m still thinking about what happened back at the river. I had an extremely rough week that I just went to find solace at my favorite spot at the river not knowing that someone’s going to show up uninvited. I had never ever expected that August would show up at the river right at the moment where I didn’t know I needed his presence. I may have acted violent a few hours ago and that’s

AMBROSE  The night was pretty much moving slowly but it was everything that I wanted. I checked the clock hanging on the wall and it’s just nine pm. For a normal night, nine pm seemed like the right time to head to bed but for a Friday night, nine pm was agreeably too early. I was a bit shocked that the night’s still very much young. I’m not rushing or anything but then I realized maybe fate was making this moment just for me and August. Maybe fate wanted us to have more time to hang out and be with each other to compensate for the time that we had lost. Part of that was because I chose to ignore August for the entire week and if I had chosen to reply or even answer his calls then things would’ve been different. We haven’t seen each other this whole week and I don’t even want to admit it but I really do miss him in so many levels. I missed his smile that seemed to bring tranqu

AMBROSE Did I hear August enunciate the words right? I asked myself. I’m pretty sure I heard him say the words perfectly clear. I’m not going to hide anything. I was truly astonished by this secret even though it’s really nothing to be astonished about. We are both dudes who likes each other and has kissed more times than I could even remember. How gay could that possibly be? I was dead ass correct when I felt like August was about to drop some sort of a bomb. He really did drop the secret bomb and suddenly this telling of secrets while turned against each other’s back felt beneficial for both of us. I have never realized that he was actually gay until now that he has spilled the truth. All this time I thought he was really this straight guy that willing to explore all of the possibilities of things and I was just the gay one who’s afraid to admit the reality of things. It w