At hindi totoong hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito na lang ako kung i-reject ang idea na interesado siya sa akin because it just doesn't fit at all. We're too opposite with one another.Abala siya sa pagkain ngunit ang tanong na nasa isip ko'y ayaw akong patahimikin. I need to ask him. I need to know why. I need his affirmation or whatever."Ilan na ang naging girlfriend mo?"Muntik na siyang nasamid sa pag-inom dahil sa kaswal kong tanong. He laughed with his clumsiness before glancing at me beside him. We are at the open field, sitting on the bleachers overlooking the school's swimming pool and track field below. Ang mga estudyanteng naroon ay bilang lamang sa darili, kasama kami."Hmn... dalawa. Bakit?"I looked at him attentively and with honest curiosity, I asked, "Sing edad ko pareho? O mas bata sakin? What makes you like them? And what caused the break up?"Natigilan siya sandali ngunit kalaunan ay dumudungaw na ang ngiti sa labi. He's trying to suppress it but obviously failing.

I noticed how they went from being excited to being worried and concerned. Nagkatinginan pa sila doon, hindi malaman ang gagawin."Sorry, Yerim. We have no idea." Hana pouted as she went closer to me to lean her head on my shoulder."No, it's fine! And to make things clear.. I live alone." I said, whispering the last words. I can see how their jaw dropped and shock is all over their faces. "So if you want to visit my house, it's just going to be us." I added as I smiled even wider.It feels nice that I've come to a point where I can share my life to others without feeling bad and uncomfortable. Sunhee and Hana are both nice to me and they make me feel welcomed since day one. Hindi nila ako pinabayaan kahit na aminado akong ignorante pa rin ako sa mga bagay na ngayon ko pa lang nararanasan. They also shared too much about themselves despite knowing me for just a short period of time. And I think now, it's time for me to do the same. It's time for me to open up myself little by little.

He insisted me to join them. I was given two mugs of beer, which made me a little bit tipsy. Marjs was texting. She asked what time I would meet her.After we have done drinking, I meet Marks in front of their house. I was so brave to do it though I knew it was risky since her husband was there.After five minutes of talk, we parted. She did not even let me kiss her hand. However it gladdens me. At least, I have seen her. She's still gorgeous. She still looks like a lady.She was sending me messages after a while. I didn't have load that's why I could not reply her. But she understands that I was disappointed by her.My first 'waking-up' has been hard. I was not at ease in doing something. We're too many here. I did not know what to do. I tried to sleep again but it was so noisy..Past nine, I helped painting the boat, which will be used today for the first time. It is also my first time in the field of fishing, dalawa ni pandak."A-Ano yun...?" kahit si Allie e mukhang kinabahan din

"Yey! Let's party!" malakas na sigaw ni Louise. Pero sa lakas ng music sa loob ng bar, nalunod lang ang sigaw niya. Kaya nagtawanan kaming lahat.Kung noon, uminom ako dahil gusto kong kalimutan ang sakit sa pagkawala ng anak ko. Ngayon, gusto kong uminom dahil gusto kong kalimutan ang sakit dahil sa asawa kong unti-unting nawawala saakin.Sana lang. Sana lang, huwag nang maulit 'yung nangyari noong huling beses akong nag-bar. Kung si Khalid, paulit-ulit na nagkakasala saakin, hindi ko gagawin iyon sa kanya. Tama nang isang beses akong nagkasala sa kanya. At saka, hindi ko naman ginusto ang nangyaring iyon.Hindi nagtagal, natagpuan ko na lang ang sarili ko sa gitna ng dance floor at sumasayaw kasama ang mga kaibigan ko.Dala na rin siguro ng alak na nainom, nagagawa ko nang makipagtawanan at sabayan sa kanila. I danced and I danced na parang walang problema.Okay lang 'yan. Dahil alam kong pagkatapos nito, malulungkot at iiyak na naman ako dahil sa pambabae ng asawa ko."Woooooohhhh!

One, I was there, tired and sleepy.Two, I did marketing. I was assigned to do it. It was one of my few jobs I could only do in our fishing group.Past four, we left ashore.I was thinking for so many things such as how could we rebuilt our abandoned house since Papay Benson gave P25K only, which is enough to redeem our property: the possibility that I couldn't join Allie took another can of beer and clicked it open. Medyo nag-spill pa yung laman nun kaya nabasa yung damit niya nang kaunti. "Ay shet, natapon."I giggled. "Ano? Lasing ka na din?"Tumango naman siya, sabay ngisi. "Medyo may amats na ko, sis.""Alam ba nang Mommy mo na umiinom ka?" naitanong ko tuloy."Oo naman, nuh. Pero syempre seventeen palang ako kaya secret lang muna. Binubungangaan ako lagi nun tuwing nalalaman niya na nag-iinom ako. Hihihihi!" natatawang kwento niya."Well, good for you though... At least, you know that she cares..." I told her absent-mindedly."Alam ko naman yun... Anyway, curious lang ako. Whe