XAVIER ROCKWELL Sometimes being alone effectively helps with your own thoughts and sanity. Even just for a sweet hour or half a day or even a full night. The utter silence feels like the widest and warmest embrace too and I’m glad that I’m spending the night alone in this hospital. It was my own choice and I’m very glad that I fought for it. My dad tried to assert his dominance over me trying to stay here with me but I already know what I want and I was even more adamant than him. In the end, he ended up letting me win the argument mostly because he’s a smart man and he knows he’s starting on his path to earning my forgiveness. Lying like a rock on my bed, I’m definitely starting to feel sore. It’s been two nights that I’m lying here basically doing nothing and I thought there was going to be no drama but I was dead ass wrong. Drama seemed to keep on finding me for some reasons

JORDI ADKINSThe aromatic smell of freshly brewed coffee immediately invaded my nostril the moment I inched my way to our favorite café. I found Nikki and Jane already settled at our usual spot right at the very corner overlooking the street outside. We haven’t been here for almost two months and perhaps it’s because our lives have been so interesting. Jane’s very much busy hanging out with his college boyfriend. Nikki has been Nikki so far, she’s just out there partying and enjoying her life. And me. My life has drastically changed ever since I almost had a one night stand with my bully.“So, how was your boyfriend doing?” Jane asked and just as I settled down on my usual spot right in between her and Nikki. She slowly slid my order towards me.“He’s fine. He just got out of the hospital yesterday.” I replied grabbing the cup and slowly taking a huge sip of my iced-coffee.“So, Xavier’s fine? But why the long face though? Did something horrible happened at the hospital?” Nikki inquir

JORDI ADKINS“Where are you taking me?” I inquired forced to trail behind Michiko who was just walking at such a fast pace as if someone’s running after her life.Michiko just ignored me and for a second, I was left hanging in the air thinking if I should just ditch her because frankly, I’m not friends with her or if should just be polite and follow her because she’s clearly the host of this party and I need to be in her good graces. I ended up choosing the latter.“This is my room.” She muttered once she led me inside this spacious abode adorned with lots of pink and girly stuff. The room felt definitely the gayest that I’ve seen in my entire life and I thought it was just some sort of a relaxation room and not her bedroom because it’s hell of a spacious room for just one person but I guess I just forgot that she’s filthy rich. “Welcome...”“Damn, Michiko. Your room looks more spacious than me and my parents’ room combined.” I said in awe.“Mich...”“What?”“My close friends call me

XAVIER ROCKWELLAs I walked inside this new expensive looking condominium space that my dad had bought for me, I was already beginning to wonder why he had to buy me a new place instead of just taking me to meet his family. It’s just an intrusive thought that I have in mind because I haven’t spoken a single word ever since he picked me up from that tiny little apartment that me and my mom had. Obviously for him, it’s such a complex entanglement and I was just having this fear that he might still be planning on hiding me for some unknown reasons. I don’t really know what’s going on with the old man and as much as I can, I tried my best to control my emotions and feelings. It was really difficult to not raise my voice at him and to smile fraudulently at him like everything’s alright when the truth was, there’s a small storm starting to form inside of me.Luckily for my own sanity, my dad decided it’s best to tell me the reason why he’s letting me stay at a different place rather than sh

XAVIER ROCKWELLIt’s been almost a month since I was calling Jordi my boyfriend and so far, the universe has been treating me the best. I’ve been filled with nothing but love when it comes to him and I don’t know if I deserve all of the love that I’ve been getting from him but it has been the happiest time of my life. I don’t know if I deserve the way Jordi was tickling my heart but one thing’s for sure, I’m going to be the best guy that’s going to love him inside and out.For all the giddy feelings and the burning emotions, such level of happiness comes with a price that Jordi and I have to settle in. There are a lot of difficult things being two men in love with each other. Clearly, it’s not that easy for us to be out and proud of our relationship unlike every straight couple out there who’s very much unashamed of showing their love in public. For the most part, sending pick-up lines, stealing glances and holding hands under the table was mostly our thing.In a sensible discussion,