The plane lands smoothly on the runway and I am equal parts excited and dreadful.  I am excited to see my son after two weeks of being away from him. It’s the longest we had ever been apart from each other. Frankly, I’m surprised I lasted that long, but it wasn’t my choice. I had to put fully recovering as my priority.  But at the same time, I am dreading this whole ordeal because I know that I’m not ready. Then again, I know I never really will be.  I often told myself–and others– that I was over it, that so many years have passed and I don’t let it affect me any more. For the most part, it is true, but it still doesn’t change the past. What happened ha

As Neo practically drags me into the castle, I remind myself that I am strong and that I am resilient. I can handle living here again for him and the best part? If it’s true that is– that Ivy Quinn was nowhere near this place. I think I can breathe a little better with that fact. This means one less person to pretend that they’re not around so my life here will be easier. I’ve already decided that my focus here will be Neo and Neo only. Zane, too, and Skye, if he even still remembers me, but besides some small acquaintances and friendly hello’s I don’t really plan on getting closer with anyone. Not again. Walking around the castle has me feeling agitated, especially when so many eyes are staring at me and watching every move I make. I can’t hear them, but I know that in those heads of theirs, they are communicating and talking about my sudden reappearance. Did they know I was coming back? Was it announced? Or was this a surprise to them as it was for me? Either way, I shouldn’t

The frozen lake is still as gorgeous as I last remember it, or even more as the beauty of Winter and Fall mixed together.  Trees around the area look like they have been sprinkled with white dust. The snow on the ground is like whipped thick cream you could just roll around on. Everywhere you looked, it was like a white and orange dream, but it’s always the frozen lake that has everyone’s attention because it looks exactly like a sheet of crystals. Bright white ice, dazzling dust shimmering, and if you look at it longer, you can’t help but get pulled in by its tiny bits of blue sparkling through.  It looks like you’re staring at one big diamond.  “I’m ready to skate

River Colden It’s been exactly one month since Keira arrived back home in our Pack and things around here couldn’t get any better. Well, it could, if she would just take me back again, but that was a completely different story. But aside from that, our Pack seemed like it was getting much better with her around. I didn’t even have to ask her to help. A few days after she arrived, she seemed to be more than willing after Zane and Skye informed her about how not so favorable the Pack had been in the years she was gone. The two of them were the closest and most comfortable she was with at the beginning, but as each day passed, she seemed to have started loosening up to the others and I was sure that eventually, she would wholeheartedly accept the Alpha crew again. Hopefully, including me. I knock on the door and wait for Keira to let me in. It’s around six in the morning which is usually the time I come to her and Neo’s room with a tray filled with food for the two of them. A

It’s hard to describe the type of relationship River and I have with each other. Sometimes I even wonder if it is possible to describe it in the first place. We have a son together, but we’re not really considered a ‘family’. We’re parents, but we’re not in a relationship. It’s a very complicated conundrum that I hate thinking about, but once in a while, when River turns to me with that stupid gorgeous smile on his stupid gorgeous face, I can’t help but think – what if we were… more? More in each other’s lives, not just in our son’s. More close with one another, and not just awkwardly conversing from time to time. More in love, and not just two confused adults with very confusing feelings.  I hear