It was hard, getting out of Ethan's arms was extremely hard, even if it was just to change the clothes I was wearing, but I knew he couldn't do that, and I didn't want to be alone, like a frightened child, but I knew I could do it without him actually seeing me change, anyway, I didn't want to be alone, I knew if I did, the monsters would come back, when that kiss was over, I didn't know exactly what to say, but they weren't my concern at that moment, and I was thankful that Ethan didn't ask me anything, and just asked me to get up and change. - You're not really going out, are you? - I asked softly as the man turned his back to me. - I swear I'm not going out, I'll be here with my back to you and my eyes closed. - And that's what he did, I saw him raise his hands to his eyes and keep them there, first I took my pants and put them underneath the strange dress they gave me, and then I took the sleeves off the clothes and left them over my body making sure that no piece of my back show

That moment, that moment was a mixture of emotions, I was anxious, worried, confused and happy when I felt her lips on mine, I was happy, it was the first time I had ever kissed someone, and I was even happier that it was that woman, but at the same time I was confused, I didn't know what to do, I felt Ayanne's tears on my face, mixing in that kiss, it was as if it was her salvation and my doom, my heart was so fast when I rushed into that room, my brain only thought of one thing, if she was okay, when I heard her screams my chest tightened, and when I saw her tears my heart bled, she was helpless, she was helpless against her own fears, and I didn't know how I could help her, but inside of me I knew one thing, that I should be there, by her side, even if it was only to hold her, even if it was only to cry beside her, I should be there. The woman smiling beautifully beside me, who is washing the vegetables so calmly, doesn't even look like the same woman who was writhing and writhing

Ethan had left to put the old door on the outside, at that moment I was crouched down in front of my room, the view I had from there was relatively simple, it was just an ordinary room, well lit with ambient light coming in through the large window that served as a very quiet place to read a book or drink a cup of coffee while letting the sun warm your body or just watch the rain fall on a cold day with a mug of hot chocolate, those were good feelings, all very happy feelings if it was anyone else in my place, but not for me, when I stood there alone I felt uncomfortable, I was feeling insecure in my own home, in my own room. My heart was racing faster and faster, every second I was there alone, but that was my home, I had fought so hard to get my own home, I had finally got a place to call my own, the feeling I felt the first time I entered here, I could still feel it, I could feel the happiness that filled my chest to overflowing, those four walls were mine, I spent every penny to b

It took me a few seconds to understand, but he really was, I felt his arm wrap around my waist, and his hand caress the length of my hair, his perfume was stronger that day, I could feel his muscles in a way that I had never even imagined, even though I had been in his arms several times, but it was different there, I closed my eyes feeling all that magic moment, it was a better feeling than when I had done it in my moment of escape from that illusory world, the taste of his lips was like drinking mint tea, it was so fresh, like a summer breeze, like the wind blowing cold on a particularly hot day, it was incredibly, maybe I wouldn't hear words to describe that moment, mainly because I couldn't wait, I couldn't let him get away. I had been really blind like Ethan had said, but not in the way he had said, I had been blind for not seeing what my real feelings were, and for considering giving Draven a chance, I knew that this insecurity was because I hadn't really found the right man, I

It was hard for Ethan to leave me home alone, in fact, I didn't want to stay either, but I had no choice I couldn't disturb the man anymore, it wouldn't be fair even if he insisted it wasn't true it still seemed wrong, when he left taking Akira I didn't wait long and unconsciously put one of the stools against the door since they had a backrest it could be very firm there, I closed all my curtains at least the windows that have them, could it be my paranoia? Yes, for sure, but I was doing that just to prepare myself for something that wouldn't happen, after all Ethan was at home, and he could defend me. I walked to the hallway and did the same with my studio door, I locked it tightly as I didn't want any unnecessary risk, at least until I felt safe again, finally I walked to my room as soon as I entered I closed the door walked to the closet and grabbed a set of pajamas, I was pretty sure I was full of clothes to wash, and I should do that tomorrow without fail at least after I got ho