When it was time to leave the house everyone was getting their bags stuffed into the back of a black limo, why were we heading to school in a limo I have absolutely no clue but here we were. Walking out of the doorway I look over at Link who stood at the top looking down towards the car before he took a step forward and I laughed before walking right up next to him “careful you wouldn’t want to trip” I whispered in his ear before laughing and walking down the steps leaving the boy behind wide eyed think of a few nights ago. “Or do you only do that going up the stairs?” I called out looking back at him and he rolled his eyes, a pout forming on his face as he steps down the steps before motioning his arms out when he made it to the bottom with an annoyed look on his face. Yesterday was hard and dinner last night was one of the most tense things in the world. Unlike the boys I was quick to act normal but they looked almost like they were afraid to talk, like if they said something I’d

“I probably shouldn’t have done that” I said my eyes wide as I pull myself out of his hold and turn away from him while taking in a deep breath and running a hand down my face “I am such a fucking idiot” I muttered to myself and I heard him laugh from behind me. “I was starting to think I disgusted you, nice to know I don’t” he said and I threw my head back cursing in my head about what I had just done “are you already regretting it” he asked and I paused because truly I didn’t. “I liked it” I whispered and his arms wrapped around me from behind. “Thank god” he muttered resting his head on my shoulder “I got worried I was the only one to enjoy it for a second” he said and I moved around to hit his chest causing him to laugh a little bit and a smile spread across my face. “You still positive you have to sleep in Jace’s room tonight” he asked and I moved a bit to look at his head that rested on my shoulder with an eyebrow raised. “Yeah, I’m pretty sure” I said before my eyes widene

Julian locked both doors in the room causing me to sigh and sit on the end of the bed that was behind me and he stalked a bit over towards me. “Are you sure you want to talk now” I ask looking down towards the ground and I hear him hum in response causing me to let out a sigh. “Do I even have the right to be upset?” he whispered, sounding a bit frustrated and I looked up to see him pacing back and forth across the room. “I’m sorry” I whispered and he shook his head. “That's the thing though Amara you don’t have anything to be sorry for” he said before turning to look at me and stepping closer “this situation is very complicated, and I can’t be mad at you if something like that happens so I’m sorry” he said and I felt surprised. He was apologizing to me, because of something I did, something I chose to do “my choice was my own Julian there is no reason for you to apologize to me” I replied looking at him surprised and shaking my head a bit. “I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did

“I’ll be back soon” I mimicked myself while pulling up to the school “well I fucking lie all the time anyway, whats one more” I shrugged a little annoyed, knowing that the guys would find the need to question me but all I wanted to do was lock myself away. Groaning at the thought I pulled into the parking space where I needed to be and turned off the car, the parking area was left in complete silence after that, barely even a buzzing sound from a light was heard. Checking the time I saw it was already around ten thirty, which meant they were all still probably awake waiting to question me about my disappearance and what it is I do for work. Avoiding could cause issues, but all I want right now is peace and quiet and a damn shower, reluctantly I get out of my car locking it behind me and begin my trek up to our dorm room. Dread filled my body after I made it up to the dorm and I stood outside looking at the door, I could just rush to my bedroom right? “I don’t know when she’s comi

“Schools in an hour and a half, everyone get up” I heard Jace yell out and then a bang in the kitchen “shit” I heard a grumble from out there and I winced as my alarm started to ring causing me to reach over and press the off button. “I don't want to” Ru grumbled and I laughed as he looked up at me with annoyance in his eyes. “Well, we have to and I need to get up, I’m hungry” I said with a small pout but he shook his head, his arms pulling me further into him in a tight grip and I fought back a smile that wanted to escape my lips. Moving my hand down I move it through his hair and I feel his body completely relax into mine. I never thought he’d ever want to be this close to me. Part of me wanted to rip it apart and destroy whatever trust he suddenly had in me but another part wanted to hold onto it while I could have it. Some day soon it would be gone and I would be on my own again, no feelings like this because they’ll be dead and I’ll be free and in complete and total control o