Leaving my family behind at Crimson Night Pack was difficult, but knowing that they would be following in a matter of days driving up to Midnight Forest Pack to move there permanently was crazy. I never imagined when I met Gabe that night that it would mean such a big change for me and my family.   Their pack has done so much for the Crimson Night Pack and the people in it when they didn’t need to. They could have so easily ignored the things we told them. Or chosen to help just Lola and I so we could be with our mates. But to go above and beyond to help the entire pack, make sure everyone was rehomed in safe packs and make sure that any of the senior pack members was held accountable was honourable of them. Something I think the majority of the pack will forever be grateful to them for. And I can't begin to say how relieved I was to know that the Alpha and all his senior team and former Alpha's would be punished for the things they have done, and for r

I had left my friends and my family as quickly as physically possible to get back to my house after saying goodbye. Tomorrow I will be going to speak to Tate Carter’s family along with Manny, and the other warriors that had been out there, we had agreed that while we were waiting at the airport. We wanted to show our respect for our fellow warrior and his family. Knox would no doubt come with us despite having already been with Lilah before he traveled down to see me in the hospital. Alpha Jacob too, I would imagine.   We will be arranging a memorial service for the young warrior too, bless him. He had been so eager to come and join in on a real mission. I had been devastated when Manny had told me. But unfortunately, it is part of the role we take on, and something we find ways to adapt to, probably never fully deal with or accept, and never forget the guys you lose. But you find ways to move on in your life and be happy and have a fulfilled life as much as

 I wake to find the bed next to me empty, and Lola not upstairs. How had I not heard her get up? This is odd. I quickly get out of bed and grab some shorts to throw on after going in the bathroom and head downstairs.  As I approached halfway down the stairs I spot Lola, already dressed, in yoga pants and a crop top, her hair twisted up into a small bun on top of her head. She appeared to be busy cleaning the house. But why?! It wasn’t even messy. I don’t get this.     I headed further down the stairs, to be hit by the smell of food cooking and coffee brewing. Don’t get me wrong, it smells amazing, but why is she doing all this? I get a sinking feeling I know where this is coming from, and it bothers me. A lot. I do not want this from my mate? She does not need to be doing all this for me.    I feel like she seems to think I expect her to be like a housemaid for me, as that is certainl

 I sit in the lounge desperate to get up and continue cleaning, but Manuel has told me I don’t need to. The house isn’t that bad, but if I am sat around doing nothing, then it looks like I am not doing my job as a good mate, taking care of our home. Especially when our home is one as nice as this. Manuel has built a beautiful home in preparation for when he found his mate.      Ready for his mate and himself to build a family. It is only right, like I have been taught that I should do the right thing and clean it, take care of it. He is the man in the house. I have to take care of him. He provided me with the house. I have to look after him, make sure he has all that he needs at home. That is what I was taught. I keep reminding myself.    Though when I follow the things we were told, he seems to get frustrated. Says it isn’t like that here, but that is not what we were told. We were

Lola and I spent the evening with her parents and brother Luis as they settled into their new homes in pack. Luis had decided on a room in the pack house, which didn’t surprise me given his age. He was definitely not wanting to be living with his parents now and had lived alone at their previous pack too so it only seemed right to sort the same here. And Knox was happy to sort him a seperate room. I think he was doing the same for Esme's older brother too. It was what Gabe and I had done as warriors too as soon as we reached 18. My Dad had told Eduardo that he and my Mum would show them around the pack in the coming weeks. And help get them settled. I have no doubt that is true. No doubt Uncle Mateo and his wife Auntie Eden would be joining them. Plus Esme’s parents once they arrive. But today we headed to the welcome BBQ for the girls. The first of many, no doubt. Time to see what they thought of the rowdy, crazy group I get to call my family. There were plenty of them, and t