CHAPTER 81GLENNA deep sigh escaped my lungs and for some reason I appreciated the fact that he was human and standing about fifteen feets away he wouldn't most probably hear it…At another instance I thought he did, he turned to look at me for a while with his gaze settling on me before getting into his car.Was this a sign that he was in on what I had done?My heart wouldn't stop as it echoed from deep within me, soon after I got back into the room I leaned against the door, feeling the toll of the day all at once.It was a silly thing to do right?The event of the day before flashes through my mind, I took advantage of the moment he stepped out to refill his gas to slip the envelope into my bag.I jumped when her hand came down on my shoulder as she jittered me back to reality, I could hear the beeping sound of the oven and the fresh scent of cake thatfilled the kitchen.My heart pounded, and I turned to see the expression she had on her face.“You seemed all stressed up” she s

CHAPTER 83SANTIAGOI dropped the cup on the wooden table, and poured another shot, then drank up. The music that was being played wasn’t helping my mood in any way as I continued to worry about what I had done at Glenn’s place.I sighed heavily, and drank the last shot, then stood up to leave. I only drank half a bottle, so I didn’t feel tipsy or wasted. I couldn’t endure the horrible feeling anymore, so I decided to head for Glenn’s house.I walked out of the pub, and the night breeze howled, and caressed my skin, making me feel a bit relieved, but it wasn’t enough. I got into my car, and started the engine, then drove off to Glenn’s place.It was best to apologize for dashing out of her house angrily. At least, if she was going to forgive me, I would feel much better than drinking to forget the horrible feeling and then remember it after I’m all cleared up.In no time, I got to her house, and parked my car outside. I got out of the car, and exhaled, hoping that things would work ou

CHAPTER 85GLENNSo it all came down to time, I listened to them speaking from the distance and tried eavesdropping but it wqs made more difficult by the noises around, I could hear everything from their rasped breath to the sound she made each time she moved.All I was waiting for was the signal, at some point it felt like that moment might never come and I was starting to give up when I saw the signal from Anna —She folded her napkin…In the next moment, I was waiting for her to make the move. Martha adjusted in her seat and stood up but while we had thought she would leave her behind she went with it.Immediately I saw the event unfolding, I groaned loudly with a frown coming up on my face, it seemed like the situation was about to get more serious when Martha caught Anna making faces.Martha looked back and our faces would have almost met if I didn't duck.Damn… Did she see me?My mind kept replaying through the scenes as I was left there still uncertain if she had or not.“Hello”

CHAPTER 87GLENNAs it turned out, for the next couple of weeks, I was pretty much alone with her most of the time, still searching for that one chance to tell her about my hidden secret.It seemed more difficult as the day passed, each moment right from the time we spent at work till the moment when we did everything from going to the mall to having lunch together, each of these moments was filled with that desire to tell her.Something kept the words back in my mind however, it was hard to tell what but that desire to tell her was shrouded by a fear of the outcome.This Wednesday however proved a different point and provided the perfect opportunity for me to do that—Anna and I started going to the movies twice a week. Once, on the weekend and the other Wednesdays, Anna had thought it would be the perfect chance for me to distract myself away from the fact that he still hasn't called after the misunderstanding we had.While I felt pained and hurt In a way that he might have suspect

CHAPTER 89SANTIAGOThey say when madness is never just the state of one psychological state, it is the state of the heart as well. At this moment I wasn't even disputing the fact that I was totally insane.I was insane about everything, I was insane at the speed or was going at and I couldn't even stop it — I was insane about life, love and my lust.Everything looked like it was stuck in one part of my brain and I had to deal with it.A lot of things changed from the last night I was Glenn and if I was to start reading them out it would be numbering to a hundred— literally.At first it was as though my thoughts were in two ways: First was perhaps the fact that I was starting to accept the fact that the child was mine and secondly because I was still mad at Glenn for no justified reasons.As the matter became more clearer, it turned out that it came down to my self esteem. After the test for the pregnancy had turned out positive in some way all i felt was this kind of guilt that cou