I sat down beside him, waiting for him to say something. He was quiet for a while and I began to think he had changed his mind and wasn’t going to talk anymore. I was about to talk when he finally spoke.“I never believed or thought that I was worthy enough to be loved until the goddess brought us together. I have never for once thought about being a father. I’m not going to be a father. I can’t. How can I be when I grew up with one who was better off dead? I can’t give what I don’t have. I didn't grow up with one so I can’t be one either. I’m still learning how to love you Jade and honestly, I’m surprised I’m doing it but I know for sure I can’t when we have a child. I’m going to let that child down and I would hate to be a disappointment to my child”Out of many reasons he could have given me. I wasn’t expecting this. My face softened.“Don’t say that. It’s not true. You’ll be a great father Keanu, and I know that”I saw him swallow before he shook his head “Baby I would do anythin

Alpha Keanu’s POVI stretched my muscles and quietly rolled out of bed in order not to wake her but my small shuffling did. Her big doe eyes opened and she blinked a few times, rubbing her eyes with fisted palms before she looked at me.“Hey, my love” A huge smile automatically hit my face. Waking up to this every day was something I’ll never get tired of. Seeing her raw beauty every morning filled my heart just as much as sleeping with her in my arms every night did. It’s so comforting and peaceful that most times I had to force myself out of bed and away from her to get shit done.She yawned while stretching her body then her eyes focused on me “Hi babe. It’s still kinda early, where are you going?”I grinned. That’s new, she barely uses any endearments for me and this made my heart flutter. “I have a meeting with some Alphas”“Oh, is everything okay?”“Yeah, it’s just a few people that I can trust and need to ally with,” I answered while heading to the bathroom. While inside the b

“What the fuck are you talking about?” I asked, my voice coming out harsh and loud.I heard loud gasps around me and the sounds of chairs screeching against the floor as everyone stood up. “Sheila, what are you talking about? Her food is poisoned or you think it might be poisoned?” Eliana asked in a much calmer tone.In the moment of panic, I hadn’t realized that Sheila was trembling in fear. I calmed myself down, dropping the utensils in my hand on the floor, and then I took Sheila’s hand. “Calm down,” I said to her, guiding her to breathe in and out with one of my hands. She followed the movement of my hand, taking in steady breaths and Eliana asked her again.“Why do you think her food is poisoned?” Sheila’s eyes were darting back and forth in the room, looking at everyone staring at her. I took her hands and went out of the dining hall with Eliana. “Talk to me Sheila,” I said, urging her to speak.She started “I was doing my morning duties, cleaning the hallway, then I noticed

I left the dungeon and went back to the castle to wait for Keanu. The castle was still in so much hassle and many eyes were on me as I walked. I didn’t go up to the room because that would only make me think and overthink the situation so instead I tried to locate Eliana or Sheila.I saw Eliana first. With her hands around her belly, she walked up to me as she saw me “Where were you?”“Needed a talk with Imelda. Is Keanu back?”“Not yet” She shook her head. I heard Nabir’s voice from where I stood with Eliana calling the girls to order and to get back to their duties. I looked around for Sheila but she wasn’t amongst the crowd.“Did she talk?” Eliana asked and I returned my gaze to her.“Huh?”“Imelda. Did she say anything to you?” She asked again.“Yes, she did. She is being threatened by some people and that’s why she came to work here” “Threatened? By who? What exactly did she tell you?” Just then I saw Sheila coming out of the hallway and the girls stepped out of her way as she

The past weeks have been going smoothly and everything seems to be back to normal. I’m not going to lie, I felt more at peace for some reason after Jethro and Amice’s death. Jethro’s family was sent out of the castle after his eldest son was punished for disobeying the curfew. Grace said she never knew Amice was up to something and deeply apologized. I knew it was a crime to try and take out a leader or his mate. But I was expecting Grace to be sad that her granddaughter is dead or better still blame me for the cause of it but that wasn’t the case. Although she was sad about her granddaughter’s death, she made sure to apologize for the shame Amice brought on her and cleared her name and of course, Keanu didn’t hold it against her.Keanu has been traveling a lot within these past few weeks and I haven’t been able to spend quality time with him. Hopefully, he’ll be back today and I can’t wait, I’ve missed him a whole lot.I continued with Eliana at the greenhouse and I must say I’m lear