“Can't you go any faster!” I yelled at the driver who seemed to be startled by my urgent and desperate orders. Desperation was quite an understatement for what was happening to me as I was seated in the back seat of that car which was headed straight for where Dolph's accident had happened. There were no words to describe the pain that was welling up in my heart at that point as I wondered why all of that would be happening on that day which was meant to be all celebrations. First, it was Julia and Michael. Now, I was on the verge of losing Dolph. It was quite hard for me to understand all that was going on at that point. It was almost feeling like the dark cloud over me hadn't left just yet. “Faster!” I yelled at the driver of the car as he went on and on. There were a lot of things that made me feel like I wouldn't see Dolph ever again. The last I remembered of him was when he had left the house after he had dropped me off at home. He smiled at me while telling me he was about

“Great…” I muttered as it was clear that Randy wasn't picking up my calls anymore. “What a wimp…” I had said that over and over and I wished that he was right there to hear me tell him to his face that he was a wimp. How could he have backed down after he had come so far in his pursuit of his lover?I took up my phone, hoping to see something that would lighten up my mood just a bit, as there was nothing and no one there for me right at that point. “Oh please…” I let out in disgust as I had been staring at my screen for the past couple of moments. There were just too many things that made me feel like I was wasting my time online. The whole internet was buzzing with news of Dolph and his newly found love whom he had just proposed to, and I just didn't like any of it. For some reason, I found myself wishing that the car crash he had faked had happened for real. At that point, everything seemed to be going their way. It felt horrible to know that all I could do was sit and watch eve

Everything seemed pretty gloomy at that point as I was lying on the couch. Going to the bed upstairs would only remind me more of my pain and that would only make me feel worse than before. “Oh my…” I let out a sigh as I was trying my best not to get my mind on those hurtful feelings that had me paralyzed. There on that couch, I made up my mind that I was going to head right over to his office and pour out my heart to him one more time. After that, I would take my hands off. The phone buzzed with a seeming urgency to pick up. I hadn't been in the mood to answer any calls all evening, except if was Michael calling to tell me that he was going to hear me out one more time. I looked over to see the name of the caller. Disappointment gripped me from inside as I saw Tamika's name on the screen instead of Michael's which I had been expecting. I had just too few words to spare at that point, even though there were a lot of things that I had been storing up in my heart which was seeking

She was surprised as expected, but there was also fear in her eyes, and that had me feeling much like I had done something wrong. I suspected that I had done something wrong. Tamika had said to show her just how much I loved her and was hoping that I hadn't overdone it back there, as that seemed to be the part that had blown it all for me. “Michael…” Julia seemed too shocked to say a single word to me, and I was expecting that as well. “How did you… why are you…”“Hush now, my love…” I said, as I put a finger over her lips and made sure that she wasn't going to ruin the moment with any wrong words. “We don't want to let this stranger hear how things are going between us.”I knew more than anyone that I was sounding weird at that point. There were a lot of things that made me feel like I was on the verge of losing it. But I steeled myself as I turned around to Phil to face him eye to eye. Phil had been surprised for a while, but he neutralized his facial expression. He stared at me

“Oh my… Dolph could go to these extents to propose to her?” Julia let out as we had been in bed, watching that video like there was nothing else to do with our time. “That was well planned, don't you think?”“Uhm… yeah…” I had been a bit absent-minded for the past couple of moments as I was trying my best not to get too caught up in all that had happened the day before. I had promised Julia that it was all behind us at the moment, and I was going to do everything that I could to keep it that way. There were just too many things that made me feel like I would never forget that moment when she had locked lips with Phil. “Are you all right?” Julia seemed to have noticed me zoning out for a couple of moments. “Oh yeah… I'm doing great.” I said as I was trying to put up a smile to cover up my slip-ups. “I was just wondering how he could have been able to have that car flipped upside down.”“Yeah… right… how did he pull that off?” She asked, not knowing that I had been part of every sing